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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
9:57 PM i wrote a post and suddenly internet encountered prob and the window was closed! =/ today it rained like armageddon during ss lesson. haha, so damn cool then i was sleeping before that! sleeping so soundly. for the very first time this year i really fell asleep in class. bcuz other times i was just closing my eyes and resting. today i even dreamt. heh. well i love the rain!! but dislike the coldness at times. brr.. anyway, went hme at around 4pm. ate yoshinoya with weiyin before tat, was kind of starving. hah. so like very delicious. ok, so went hme to bathe. then sleep.. til abt 7pm in which i woke up for my dinner. did not even finish half, then very tired, so go back to bed. it was abt 7.30pm slept til abt 9pm. was woken up by SMS! haha.. decided against going back to sleep in case i miss JIN SAN SHUN!!!! going watch soon. hee ohh goodness!! KWON SANG WOO from stairway to heaven is coming to SINGAPORE this sunday! worse, we've got cip on that day! i so wanna see him! ARGHHHHH so cuteeeeeeeee!  
Sunday, August 27, 2006
8:58 PM eating durians again!!! haha so diff to type using one hand. i so love durians ok! mmmm.. 6:44 PM     
i loved 1e1 and 2e3. what about 3e6? Saturday, August 26, 2006
8:24 PM i m eating DURIANS now. yummy yummy! :D Friday, August 25, 2006
2:26 PM ok, lets just forget abt all those unhappy stuff and look on the bright side of life! heh. this entire week has been tests tests tests. the best ting is tt today dont have any! but l8r stil gotta go for the esplanade tingy. then everyone is like asking around wat others are gonna wear. haha. hope its not going to be THAT boring lah. wednesday, we had maths test aft sch. then it started to pour HEAVILY. some of us went to the canteen to grab a bite first. however, the rain stil continued going down in huge buckets. so didnt have other option, but to get drench in the rain. lol. like bathing la. all our hair became so messy and COOL. errr. the dumbest ting is that by the time we reached bedok inter, the rain had stopped. and at tamp it was SCORCHING hot ok! HAHA went hme for a shower. then headed for tm. met moo who eventually decided to go orchard for her bro's farewell dinner. ok, so met up with ford hup wh davin theyall. to buy pj prez. went mini toons, toys r us. quite lame, kept playing. haha. they bought pig stuff. lol some fotos:
:D
tis dress is almost my size! =/
damn bo liao, so went to edit til liddat
-the end. Wednesday, August 23, 2006
8:47 PM relating back to weiyin's post. really admire her for being able to be so truthful in her blog. have always wanted to post abt this kind of stuff but somehow i just couldnt. i used to think that i m the only one who was experiencing all this, that everyone else out there was so happy and carefree. i guess i m wrong. thats bcuz from wat i've heard for the past few months, many others are actually not wat they seem to be on the outside, happy. evriting is just "looking from the surface" i dont believe in the term 'best friends' anymore, needless to say, true friends. from the teenage magazine, it states "if you want others to befriend you, you have to be a friend to them first" yes, HOW to be a friend? well nobody is to be blamed, bcuz i myself have forgotten how too. and i guess that its true for some too. i always stone in school. always seem to be staring into space. i dont know, this just seems to be the easiest way to react. i have also lost the ability to react to others. why is it that when i see simple acts of kindness from friends, it feels so surprising. i have talked abt my feelings to a couple of friends. and i have been moving on and telling myself " BE HAPPY! BE FRIENDLY! SMILE! LAUGH! then everything would be better" so thats wat i m doing now. honestly, time can really heal the pain. when you have gone through all this for a period of time, you really can become numb to it. but even so, nothing changes. many question marks here and there. now, all of a sudden i m loss for words. i have alot to say. but my mind is already in a whirl. somehow i cannot seem to express myself already. a post i wrote on april 05: ---------------------------------------------- well. wad can i say. honestly i dont know wads happening around me or even to me. just now during ace lesson, ms ng asked us to visualise the someone who is closest to us. and i realise, not for the first time, that i havent really got anyone who is close to me. REALLY. people dont believe when i tell them i do NOT have real friends. if you really do observe it, you can tell. but then, i cant say its anyone's fault. its also quite impossible for things to get any better. probably because our school ppl usually interact with the same grp of frens,that we dont get a chance to socialise with others and get real close to them. i wanna find a new grp of friends, but i wonder how i m gonna do that. sigh sometimes i wonder, wad exactly is true friendship? i look around me now and i cant find even ONE friend whom i can TRULY count on. i've got friends who are only there on the surface. but actually we dont understand one another. i even get the feeling that we are on cold war now. its just so damn weird lah. maybe its just that connection or sth? somehow there's this barrier blocking. you say, friends only wad. to me, its not just play play only. but a genuine one. i choose not to care now, even though by saying all this, i actually do. ppl ask me why, its bcuz i m too tired. i've learnt that if i cared too much, i will end up getting hurt. if anyone was to let me open my heart to them, i will cry. i will. because nobody understands. and i guess the problem lies with me, alone? i feel so lousy. like i wish i dont exist. ------------------------------------------- truly, many things have happened. but deep within, evriting is stil the same. why does it seem so hard to comprehend wat others are thinking now i have been acting indifferent to many ongoings. but in actual fact, i care so much that it cannot barely be explained in words. i wanna so much to cherish all that i have, but WHAT do i have? Monday, August 14, 2006
9:59 PM i have decided to be very specific abt my daily life. this is for my personal reference, thank you. therefore, its going to be uninteresting. last night went to bed at 11 plus. then was lying down and thinking of stuff. no matter how i tried to not move, to get to sleep, i just COULDNT! argh. mind just kept wandering away. looked at the time, it was abt 1.15am already. wth. i was thinking for one hr plus and didnt realise it at all. the worse part was that i kept going to the TOILET! so irritated by myself. somemore its seventh month, so very scary! then keep having to go out of bed and go to the toilet, practically for 8 times! i counted! =/ haha. damn sian. so scrolled through my fone contacts and anyhow sms ppl. jodie said at the time i sms her, she was actually awake. but then her fone was not near her, then suddenly "beep!.. then she so scared, dont dare check. lol. at that time, i only had my fone for company. that pathetic. SO! i was at there lying down also cant get to sleep, then so QUIET. hence, i decided to listen to mp3. haha. so lying down and listening to the music, with the hope that i could fall aslp halfway. but listen listen, also not sleepy. lol. then looked at the time again, 2.35am!!! dammit. damn frustrated le. ARGH. wait wait wait. by the time i really fell asleep (i think), it was 3am liddat ba. maybe even later. lame right! i dont even remember sleeping. cos in the morning my alarm rang, and i thought it was a dream..and went back to sleep. then suddenly my maid woke me up. zzzz. i just woke up with a start and HUH! OHH! haha. sleep equals to not sleeping. like not long ago listening to music then next moment wake up liao. then go school, i kee siao. keep laughing also dont know for wat shit. and i was talking to weiyin ALOT, i guess. evritime weiyin talk, nothing. then when i talk, ms fang call my name! HAHA. she called my name for a few times la. the last time she called, she said "VALERIE! can you dont talk, you are distracting me! Come, eat eat eat. ( passed me the cake she brought) Then dont talk already -.-" ok, so i ate lah. heh. (= wanted to go to toilet next. was abt to go in when i remembered that ppl said that the 2nd storey toilet was haunted! therefore, i didnt go. haha, damn urgent. recess, finally could go toilet. then go canteen damn weird. jodie them one side, muying qq another. think no space or sth. today spent my recess with pj. funny lor, cos very long never eat with her. i realise that not only this time, but many times before too, i would say this to her " hey very long never with you alr leh. haha." then always same reaction, " YA LOR YA LOR" hist, as usual, was boring. this is such a simple word. but really, it's just, BORING.never once did i really pay attention during this lesson. chemistry, no mood to think. i blowed my nose too much the previous lesson and was feeling lethargic. then keep feeling nauseous. hate that feeling! assembly. felt so stupid watching the performance of the internet tingy. it's like so lame that it couldnt be lamer. then went canteen for "lunch", in which i didnt eat. no appetite. went hme straight after that. bathed and went to sleep! zzzz woke at 7pm to watch the last episode of xi guan da sha. ok. stupid post. this is like so routine. makes my life seem so dull, even though it is la. alot has happened since the beginning of this year. have known more ppl from my class better. have already forgotten the feeling i had at the start of the year. weiyin was like telling me that everyone has changed probably due to the impact of all the stress we face. quite true, because i have also changed. haha. then i told her abt the book i read. the back cover states " life is an ugly, awful place not to have a best friend" the two best friends in the book so cool. just meet somewher after school and that friend had already bought two cokes, one for herself, another for her friend. such a simple act, but it means so much. this post is getting nowhere because i m just typing out whatever comes to my mind. people just do not cherish wat they've got until it is gone. like for now, i keep complaining abt school and evriting. but when the time really comes when we graduate, i guess i would be tearing. and then when i finally go out to work, i would rather be back schooling. we just do not get satisfied lah. whenever i get emo i think of stuff in the past. will talk abt the friend who will forever be part of me, another time. i guess that date would be appropriate. i can never forget that. never. it makes me realise the importance of TREASURING. so for now. if anyone actually takes time to read this. i wanna say, i love you all. haha. (: cos life is so unpredictable. Friday, August 11, 2006
10:15 PM haha! realised i made a lot of blogs before. these few days feeling rather nostalgic.. checked up on p6 and sec1 blogs. the way i talked was like so different. lol. p6 one too personal so not posting the link up here. sec one - http://ilurveyou-valerie-.blogspot.com/ heee. it's lame. ok i went back to see the blog bcuz i remembered i posted abt the chalet that time. -_- and cedric's blog was so funny! ohhhhh. how time flies! i miss those times! we were so childish. HAHA(:(:  so kuku right! =O
haha. i cant help but laugh at us. =/ Thursday, August 10, 2006
7:18 PM this is going to be a VERY long post. but very detailed. monday supposed to come my hse for proj. but end up never really do. haha. abt 5.20pm, qianqian hupsong ranford and i rushed to century square to watch the movie, click. we were quite late, cuz the show starts at 5.10pm. so by the time the rest arrived after buying some snacks, it was abt 5.30 already. lol altogether 12 of us went.- qiyun camilia jodie ranford shihan qianqian weihao hupsong davin joel gavin and me. (: CLICK. hmmm, overall its a nice show. at first very difficult to comprehend. i was like, err.. haha. but then funny show, and there was one part which was really touching. many of us cried. :'( the movie reflects how impt family ties are. we have to cherish all our loved ones around us before it is to late to regret. makes me ponder alot. ohwells. after the movie, went to take neoprint. haha. the machine all japanese words also dont know how read. then we no choice, anyhow take lor. nevermind lar, the outcome also not bad. just that cuz alot ppl take, so the foto come out very small. lol. went to buy chengde's prez. HEHEHEHHE. ;)
peacock!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
9:48 PM " i wonder what it would be like to not give a damn about what people thought of you watever it is, it really IS difficult to express myself here. so i wont elaborate. anyway not gonna blog already. probably until after the chalet. i m penning all this down so i get the chance to turn back and see what i was feeling at this point of time in the future. memories- how wonderful, how sweet, how hurting. i just wish i could disappear forever Wednesday, August 02, 2006
5:07 PM common tests OVER! :D hmmm. wat to say. haha. dont want think of test le. so dont talk abt test.. yesterday. never go co again! three reasons- dont feel like going, never bring erhu and bcuz next day having common test. err. haha. i know, i kena alot of scolding. EH. anyway since didnt go co, took bus hme. it was like usual lar. HOWEVER when i got down the bus, i heard someone talking. out of the corner of my eyes, i saw that this someone was talking to me. at the moment i thot he wanted to ask me for direction. so i looked up. he asked "hello, wat is your name. i want to be your godbrother." so SUDDEN i see his face, like mind abit sot one. so obviously, i didnt answer and quickly walked away. the scary part was that he actually followed! at that point of time i was at a loss of wat to do. damn scared!! a crazy guy was followin me! luckily for me, when i finally reached my hse after walking dont know where, he was quite some dist away. and luckily again, i only live second storey, so i hurriedly went up! :S wl. my hse there like many weird ppl. this is the third time i have encountered this kind. but i m considered lucky already. hahaha okay. forget this. now i very qi dai the class chalet! havent asked parents yet. but sure can go one lah. i m such a good girl, of cuz allow lar. (: aiya. EXHAUSTED going to take a nap. :O byebye |
at the lobby of sentosa resort
really cute girls!
sun set!!!! 
legs! 
the moon at night, 5.30am