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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
8:11 PM mdm yue didn't come today cuz got toothache. haha. and pj kept laughing when she heard that. was really paiseh during geog lesson. cos the teacher asked around what was our GROUP name. then i at there so blur lar.. thought he was asking for our name. then i go say "valerie.. " the class laughed lar. i want dig a hole and hide inside sia..=/ i threw my face lol. so after that he keep say valerie grp. hmmph. studied like siao for chem also for no use. we were like testing each other in class then so jing zhang! haha. den the test wasn't as difficult as i expected.. hope i do well enough.. anw. got 8/10 for ss test(: hehe. so satisfied cos i didnt actually had time to complete the test.. so not bad le.. haha.. ms cheng came to talk to us during co. abt the beijing trip ar.. not that we are interested.. well, today combine was alright cuz we did not get much scoldings and i think we played quite good(= haha. but its still so not up to standard obviously.. 18 more days to the actual performance!! so not prepared... we are gonna wear the syf costume if possible..thats wad dinglaoshi say. if no choice then wear black and white. i don want syf de.. i look so yuck. haha even more yuck than black white.. aiya cos i short ma then the skirt all so long... don't like standing on stage. make me look so small.. its pathetic. gonna have english oral tmr! i have always hate oral the most.. cuz i just can't speak fluently and i always cant think of anything to say for the pic and conversations. argh just hope i can crap out anything lar.. took the mrt at 7.15 this morning! it was my contacts fault. haha. had difficulty putting them on.. so ma fan! woke up at 5.30 somemore.. dunno how i spend my time.. haha i always dun seem to have enough time getting ready in the morning. and i don't da ban okay! i even rush tying hair leh. still disliking sch.. EVERYTHING this year is so so rushed. every week test.. then tmr gonna have the floorball thingy. next week have carnival and jogathon also. fri is ptm.. AIYA. like so many thing squeese together! haha then in class brian and cy were like saying "yi zha yan then.. blah" [ in a blink of an eye..] what crap lar. yi zha yan then got baby liao. or wad lan diao. dunno lar! but so true.. time really will pass by very quickly.. but nonsense. they blinked and nothing happen. lol.(= no tution tmr. should i feel happy or sad. haha. so i have to self study le.. go figure out how to solve SETS! hais. i do feel sick of this life. i wonder who isn't. hmmm. Monday, February 27, 2006
8:34 PM a recap of ytd's happenings. went to zh hse at noon and we had long john for lunch. talked lots and lots abt stuff and this meant that i hardly studied for chem. shouldn't have gotten distracted so easily ar. haha. had instant noodles for dinner last nite. argh so unhealthy! reached hme at 10plus. yawn. TODAY. brought my erhu to sch. so troublesome lar. then weihao helped me and pj carry when we met him on the way to sch.. haha. emaths common test- 24/40! its a B4. ok so i expected to score really bad.. and yar. dats it. guess i'll have to work harder for my maths. amaths test is postponed to thurs but doubt i'll have the time to revise for it. this is so sickening. sort of skipped co. but we told ms ho and she said up to us. anw. went for lunch at kfc with a group of ppl.. was trying to study chem but nothing got into my head! argh. and didn't have the appetite to finish my meal.. on the mrt i decided to go to emerlyn's hse as i didn't have the mood to go hme.. we studied like siao and i nearly got a headache. stayed there till 6.30pm and we did not got to chapt two at all. oh boy. this is driving me crazy! rushing now. gotta read thru all i don't care. i noe i won do well but as long as i tried my best can le. guess i'd have to burn the midnight oil tonight.. or wake up extra early tmr.. shucks. my mind is just CHEM CHEM CHEM. i can't think. Saturday, February 25, 2006
8:36 PM quit jap class this morning. haha. i always ban tu er fei de. have been liddat since young. realise that time i quited hmt at 2nd lesson also. till now i dunno if i regret it nots. went for co instead. had to teach sec2s the song piece. it was such hard work. only taught them till half of first page out of four pages! man. how can lar. we took abt 3months to learn and they only have 3weeks?! dinglaoshi was really mad at us. not sure of wad exactly happened. but its bcos we were toking too much during combine. so she just packed up and went back.. around 2pm. it seemed rather serious. if on tues we are gonna tok while she's teaching again, she will quit being our conductor. so well.. i feel that co is really getting from bad to worse. many of us do not have the interest le. and its really disorganised! sometimes we get real mad abt how tings are handled. always last min then tell us tings. if we were performing for changchen, how come only 1month before concert then teach the sec 2s. they could have decided last nov or dec and it wouldn't be so rush like now.. anw. due to time constraint, we're gonna have practice on monday too! wth. and theres two tests on tues! WHY. arHh. SO, gotta study damn hard tmr lar.. really really tired. alright, so there isn't a day when i m not feeling sleepy. just feeling so sick sick sick. ate and slept when i got hme. hah. i feel like a pig. - why can't i get over it? i'm stuck on something that won't come true. Honestly I continue wanting, but there's nothing i can do. Friday, February 24, 2006
9:35 PM i should stop worrying abt stuff. haha. i think i will. got 6/20 for hist test! haha but i m like so satisfied with this result.. cuz i thot i would only get 1-2 marks. and i kept laughing when i got back the paper.(: hardly studied for hist quiz which we had today. i think only brian and a few really studied for it lar.. pass can le haha. anyways. brian announced that we will be having chalet in march.(= hopefully we will be able to make it cuz there may be co practices and maybe even co camp! argh. but i really wanna go cuz will be like so fun! haha. concert ticket so hard to sell. almost all of those i asked have already agreed to buy from other ppl. its not a wonder as there are so many co ppl.. so i'd better try to sell fast or else no more chance le. but then some ppl are so indecisive.. haha. i guess i should start saving up. i've been spending this few days and not saving at all. haha somemore march hols are coming. but doubt i can even have a good rest then.. i will be so busy.. with co. dots. went bk with amelia emerlyn and pj for lunch. we kept chatting on and on.. so when we suddenly had nothing to say like become so quiet then v funny. reached hme around 4pm and took a nap.. so tired that i woke up only when the second alarm went off.. lol. replugged lesson learned the new song "yin tian" i have to be cool while singing it haha. and it isn't easy cuz i can't act cool.. lol. juliet asked if i wanted to perform for dunno wad event in may or sth liddat. i said almost every week also got test. then aiya. next time then say. stress lar. hais. english oral next wed.. plus three tests! realise we have amaths test on tues. wth. i'd better study hard for sets. must not fail! argh it is really never-ending. thats wad i told juliet and she said that was the first time she heard me say something amusing. and she laughed. funny meh. =/ jap lesson and co tmr. same as last week lar. Thursday, February 23, 2006
9:38 PM HEADACHE the whole time before chem lab period. and it was terrible! its those kinda headache which hurts so much that it makes me cry. had it alr since i stepped out of my hse. it didn't hurt that much then.. slept during amaths lesson. ms ang allowed. haha. and i forgot wad i dreamt. lol. i actually dreamt lar. my headache got better after the nap. thats why i could concentrate better after that. and then. chem was funny. i didn't realise i lifted the delivery tube up the limewater. then got the sound.. like suddenly! the limewater zoom to the test tube containing copper2 carbonate. hah. and i was so shocked. well. ms jiang scolded us again. and made our whole class so quiet.. really really quiet. but i m like so used to her scoldings lor. anw i got 72% for the first ca overall of chemistry. not bad le lar..hehe. brought back many books today. actually i intended to study hist, complete the ss ws and eng ws.. and also do the amaths hw. BUT i have done NONE. its like so typical of me lar. its just that i cant seem to absorb anything i read and no mood. excuses(x damn tired. gotta go sleep early tonite.. yawn. Wednesday, February 22, 2006
8:23 PM 12.5/22 for geog. haha at least i passed ya. went to k box with cedric and zhilin at 2plus after sch. was really indecisive. haha at first decided not to go den in the end still went lar. both of them were like crazy ppl and i m the only one who's perfectly normal(: all of us seem to have caught the flu. both cedric and i while singing halfway will have phlegm stuck in the throat. then mine kept going up to my nose and stuck zhu. cant sing on.. haha. then they two kept saying the mic was so smelly. ahah. maybe its bcos cedric's smelly socks touch dao. lol. overall we had a great time(= really can relieve stress. that was my purpose of going too. hehe. i wonder how the day will be like tmr. i dread going to sch now. * never mind. just go away. i've tried but its of no use. you dont care anw. as long as u're happy. nothing matters, really. but i'd still be lying if i said i care no more. i m slowly losing consiousness. i m no longer the same prsn i once was. i m tired of everything. but its okay. i m alright. cuz i've become numb already. Tuesday, February 21, 2006
8:57 PM i m stupid. haha. REALLY. ppl were like knowing how to do the questions for the emaths test. and i hardly knew how to do. during the test i kept telling myself to relax and think! but i couldn't. kept worrying! if i really do fail both of the common tests, its all my fault lar. i should have put in more effort..ya. got three tickets to sell for the concert in march. hope it will be a success. its like so rush! the sec twos still don't know how to play changchen! and they are expected to learn it by thurs?? excuse me. we sec threes took months man. well, the shui zhun drop alot lar. haha! but if our whole class goes together for the concert, how great it'll be(= it should be a class outing. haha.. next week still got chem and physics test. damn. Monday, February 20, 2006
9:30 PM yays. got my contacts! and it certainly does feel weird to be able to see without specs.. haha. but its really hard to put and take out the contacts. hopefully i can get used to it soon. ohyes. i can finally see in class tmr.. hahaha. 6:42 PM OKAY. so i think i m sick. i cant stop clearing my throat as it feels so dry and itchy. and i m having serious running nose which just doesn't stop! i practically use one whole box of tissue a day. man. but so wad. i m not sick enough to skip school! haha stupid isn't it. who wants to fall ill.. well i hope i do, really. haha. and seriously ill. we had english common test for the last two periods. by that time we were all so exhausted already. my brain could not function properly. so tired how think! argh. it was one of the most difficult english paper i ever did. there isn't a high possibily for even a pass. cuz i was writing nonsense. for the question on why a man was speaking with all the dots.. " ..ank you.. blah" many ppl wrote cos he was nervous or sth liddat. guess wad! i go write he speak liddat cos he wanted to ATTRACT ATTENTION. siao. why i wrote that also dono why. dumb leh. attract attention for wad. tmr having emaths common test. just came back from maths tution not long ago. didn't really learn much just did some revision. HOW. i can't afford to do badly for maths too. since there isn't much hope for english. i don't wanna be ranked at the bottom!! just remembered. there's co after school tmr. can't i like ever get out of all this. but this is reality lar. face it man. just have to work extra hard this year. really strong competition. haha.. i've decided to concentrate on my studies. what for think abt other stuff. guess i'll have to wake up now.. i feel stupid. haha. Sunday, February 19, 2006
12:59 PM wish i could fall ill. i so DON'T wanna go school tmr. its the same routine every week with all the tests to worry abt. i hate it. Saturday, February 18, 2006
7:21 PM was late for jap class. first lesson. we arrived fifteen min late. haha. the lesson was OKAY. learnt basic stuff like how to intro urself..etc. "watashiwa cheong desu" alright. it sounds stupid saying surname instead of name. HAHA. it'd have been funer if more ppl from our class came! well. co was okay too. cuz we didn't really got scolded. we were asked to play changchen cuz thats one of the song pieces we are going to perform in march. and i can say it is so much lousier compared to last year. OF COURSE. all the sec twos didn't learnt it. but dinglaoshi say not bad man.(: yay. went with dad to buy contacts! but it'd be ready next week lar. costs $70 cuz i bought the daily disposable one. and good ting my eyesight did not increase(= yayay. i m now trying to be optimistic abt evriting. and hopefully i won't breakdown again. but i still wish i could slp and not wake up forever. having common test on mon and tues. argh > if its something i don't wanna hear, don't say a word. because i won't believe its true. Friday, February 17, 2006
8:09 PM got 19/25 for physics test. kinda disappointed cuz i did study hard for this test. but NVM. cuz i thot i would do worse at first. haha.. 39/50 for chinese test and 19/30 for english.. i think i did average lar. at least i did not fail(= hehe. felt really tired the whole time during lessons. not much energy haha. and my throat is like so dry.. no matter how much water i drink still the same. i don wanna get a sore throat! argh today chinyang sick. his hand so hot. shouldn't have came to sch ar. like so ke lian.. then english period sat with de hong and yan jie. so funny lar. the feeling like different. lol. de hong at there signing his name on paper. i realise that the way he tok is almost the same as cy. hupsong say they twins. CRAP. after school peijun and amelia came over to my house. read i weekly, listen music, play piano, use com etc. haha quite nice lar. they used the eyerelax lol. then amelia introduce a website for game. looks cute! they two kept laughing at the games. i also dono why. must go try too. hehe. 4plus, we went to tm. looked at books at times bookstore. i wanted to buy "the alchemist" by paulo coelho.. but! i found the other books written byhim..and i just couldn't find that book! nvm i'll buy it another time. bought lisa jewell's book instead. it is an adult fiction but i know its nice. cos i really loved her "one hit wonder".. went to music junction next. i did not even hesitate to buy JJ's new album! i just noe its gonna be SO nice man! (= hee. now listening to his songs.. no regrets(: had singing class afterthat. recorded my singing for "wo xiang" i improved=) yay. gonna learn difficult song next week. haha. juliet asked me to compose my own song. she told me to give it a try.. HOW CAN? i m not that good. AND. she said she was the one who help JJ write the "bei feng chui guo de xia tian" lyrics!! LOL. whoa. guess i m sinking in deeper as time passes by. ): Thursday, February 16, 2006
10:32 PM i dono wad to think or even wad to say. cos i don't understand you. anyway had a breakdown in sch just now. i cried. couldn't take it. hais. i m still so sensitive.. thats all. Wednesday, February 15, 2006
7:01 PM HAPPY TOTAL DEFENCE DAY! geog test was really tough. i was like writing the same ans for every ques. its not my fault okay. the questions were so difficult to comprehend. praying hard that i will at least pass! it was hilarious in class. yunjie lar. keep singing! the LIANG ZHI HU DIE.. then somemore always the same song and same line. lol. we were like asking her to sing different songs. then the best was the lao shu ai da mi.. CHORUS. other songs all don remember lyrics. haha! HILARIOUS. whatever it is. i quite like today. haha. feeling so relaxed now as if a load has been lifted off me. just had tution for 2hr 45min just now! no choice. had to go cos next tues emaths common test le! arh. and i hardly understand anything abt the topics. cos i don't pay attention and i suck at maths lar.. just now maths lesson i was revising for geog. regret. should have paid attention. cos wads the use. there isn't much chance of me passing geog. hah. BUT NVM! (: for now. i don't wanna think haha. no more tests for this week thats wad i noe..(= CO tmr. and i m not looking forward to it. obviously. *can't show you the hurt i feel inside. Tuesday, February 14, 2006
8:01 PM HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!(: everyone's like so excited for this very special day to come. haha also dono why. we sold all the bouquets in just the first recess! whoa. if only we had enough time to make more.. BUT not bad already. spent the whole nite ytd making the bouquets! haha. anyways. it was kind of a success today. lol. everything was like so nice. (= Then. i fell down! i just tripped and the next ting i knew i was lying on the ground..and my shoes went flying off. it was so embarrasing. argh. guess i looked comical.! there are scratches on my knees. it gets really painful when i bathe or accidentally touch it..): got 27/35 for emaths test. it was a disappointment. i'd rather we retest. hah. and i lost two marks just bcos i didn't change to 3 sf. wth. after school a grp of us went to princess to watch movie. -[ jodie muying huiting lihui pearlyn peijun amelia ranford vincent weihao hupsong qiyun qianqian joel and two other guys and ME] we bought our lunch at macdonalds to bring in and eat. cos it was 3pm when we reached th place. and the time slot for the show was at 3.15pm.. watched fun with dick and jane. stupid show lar. i didn't really think it was funny. then somemore got a guy smoke in the theatre. irritated! so inconsiderate lor. reached hme at 5plus. bathed and went to slp. woke up at 7pm for dinner. and i did not even ate half. no appetite at all. now gonna rush to revise for geog. mdm yue said she was compassionate enough to postpone the test to tmr. lol. why cannot next week! i think i m gonna be stressed. haha. so many tests. one after another. i wanna slack lar. sian. > i m learning to let go. Sunday, February 12, 2006
7:55 PM its the 15th day of cny! yuan xiao jie. had kway chap and tangyuan for lunch. the kway chap so fatty lor. ate only half. hah. felt so lethargic. after lunch went back to sleep. woke up at abt 4.30pm. then went out with my bro and dad. bought watch. lol. its been a long time since i've got a watch cos too lazy to buy.. and the previous one's straps snapped. gotta wake up fifteen min earlier tmr to use the eye-relax. and take the bilberry tingy so that my eyes won get tired easily. haha.. ohyar. if possible, i wanna get contact lenses by end of this month. dad says he could buy me valentine's day prez. yays(: and shucks. i just remembered i still have to get jq a prez too.. its going to be a busy day for me tmr. got to show mdm yue the sample i made. and it is so ugly! HOW. then..after sch do wad?? prepare for the bouquets?? buy jq prez.. also have to study for geog test!!! argh. and the test have to study like..more than thirty pages of complicated stuff..which i hardly understand. ohboy. Saturday, February 11, 2006
10:10 PM frienster horoscope.AGAIN The Bottom Line Be active with people today -- you'll gain positive ideas from all their energy. In Detail The universe hasn't quite had its fill of inspiring you to push the envelope when it comes to romance -- and going overboard to show your feelings. Of course, it's almost Valentine's Day, which is the official reason for the mood you're in. The unofficial, private reason is that you're in love, and you want your partner -- or prospective partner -- to know just how wonderful life with you can be. Relax. They already know. --------------------------------------- wth. i don't quite understand wad it means. but i don't have the mood lar. AND i m not in love. 9:45 PM slept till 12plus this morning. i didn't want to wake up even then. went to street 21 to buy shoe at two plus. when i was reaching hme, hupsong smsed. lol. he said he walked past me. and i did not even realise it. then jq oso sms saying he knew wad to buy for me le.. die ar. i haven decided wad to buy yet.. haha. gonna go shop for his prez on mon. actually i wanna buy for some ppl but just cant think of anyone else who will be willing to exchange with me. reached hme. ate white chocolate. i just can't resist the temptation lar. but i need to cut FAT. especially from my tummy! argh. haha.. went out again. with my family.. took mrt to tanjong pagar. going for the eye workshop. checked my eyes using the eye-chart. for my left eye i could only read to the 5th line, and the 2nd for my right eye.. and julian could read to the 12th! PERFECT eyesight. hmmph. had the talked on shortsightedness and the eye-relax product. then we tried it. just had to look into the screen of the eye-relax tingy and put on the earpiece to listen to music. my eyes were watering! haha.. looked into it for 5 min for each eye. then close eyes for another 5min. checked eyes again. whoa. i could read to the 6th line for both eyes! meaning i improved 1line for left and 4lines for right.. AND julian read till 14line! they say 13line is EAGLE eyesight.. then 14 leh?!?! power. we bought the eye-relax at $528!!! plus bilberry sweet thingy for $28 and got one free.. wha. after that, went to tm with my mom to buy the materials for the flower bouquets.. then i went hme to make a sample. but its so NOT nice. yucks. how!! i realise i m not even growing. wad is wrong with my body. i can't even control it. and this sucks bigtime. Friday, February 10, 2006
3:46 PM first ting in the morning, had to do chinese compo. and i can't believe i actually managed to complete it(: whoa. one word to describe the day: awkward. i must have been out of my mind to even say anything. what was i even thinking! to others it may not be that impt but it does mean alot to me. honestly! sometimes i don't know what i m saying myself.. things seem to be getting out of hand lately. i should have stayed cool and just keep mum abt evriting. i wanted this to be perfect. and it can't be anymore. i m just a nobody lar. argh. i still can't believe.. i can't. and i don't want to. but i can't do anything. NOTHING at all. had HIST test. it was the worse test of all since the starting of sch. even though i knew we had the test i did not bother to study it well. just read thru the notes last nite.. and as my mind was occupied with other stuff and in addition to the lack of interest in this subject, i couldn't absorb basically evriting.. i KNOW i will get about 1-2 marks out of the 18 marks questions! if i get higher than that, i laugh ar.. haha. went yoshinoya for lunch with amelia pj and emerlyn. i finished the food(= haha.. then went to ntuc. cos i had to check the prices for sweets or chocolates which we can use to make the flower bouquets.. i m in charge for it for the valentine's day thingy. and i m like so not up to the job. argh. the budget is $30. and i think i have to bring a sample on monday if i m not wrong. wl. how to call the others to work together when i don't even know who.. the bouquets sold at ntuc are so pretty and cute. have the teddy bears and ferrero rocher.. but so ex! make ourselves even better.. but then. i wouldn't mind receiving one(: lol. having singing lesson at 5.30pm. sian ar. i don't have the mood to sing le. its like i hardly care about anything nowadays. i m going thru a major change of my personality. hahaha. i just need some motivation. SERIOUSLY. i do. Thursday, February 09, 2006
8:44 PM okay. so it was my turn to be in a bad mood this morning. actually not that bad lar. just no energy to talk. haha. ss test was first period. many of us asked other class ppl what was tested.. lol. play cheat. then really same ques! but the test was only 20min..which is like not enough time?? obviously i did not complete lar. just hoping i won't do too badly.. had chem test too. it was open notebook.. and it was freaking difficult. i hardly knew how to do even half of the questions. MCQ anyhow write abcd. haha and most of my ans were different frm brian. i m gonna fail badly! ): when ms ng came in for eng lesson.. many of us went to the toilet. should be more than ten.. haha like gathering liddat. then we stayed in the toilet for some time.. ms ng soon became angry and shouted. haah. i wasn't listening. so then. after school jessica came to our classroom. ask us to go watch vb match with her at tp. say is against chung cheng. wl. i wan go lar. but got CO! actually, after much thot, we decided to go..and skip CO. BUT! at the bottom of the stairs we met ms annabel ho. she asked if we going CO and say must go... jessica v ji dong. haha so funny ar.. then we met mr wang. he also say go.. talk long long. we all say till we wanna quit lor.. if not bcos of cca points i think many of us already left co long ago.. went at 4pm today. it is damn late. but i no longer care. we don't belong there. hist test tmr. and i have not studied one bit. its depressing. i don't know a single thing about the chapt. only that its abt russia.. or what. haha. Wednesday, February 08, 2006
8:18 PM don't really have time to blog. gotta study for ss. but nvm. just a short post.. the day ended with it being problematic and puzzling. also don't know what happened. haha. but at first we were laughing and all that. then suddenly the atmosphere like become so cold.. didn't pay attention in class at all today. we were chatting on and on.. then jodie keep making me laugh. haha. anyways. met up with vincent after sch. went to library to study ss.. but my mind wasn't focusing. it kept wondering and i had a heart-to-heart talk with vincent. haha. bought the chocolate sweet that pj and i loved so much. me and jodie have a deal. we are gonna bring sweets tmr and hope to brighten up the day..ba.(= Tuesday, February 07, 2006
8:22 PM had pure geog for 4 whole periods! and i was complaining that my body was aching from head to toe. haha. and pj was laughing at me. its so NOT funny okay. kinda regret taking geog instead of bio actually. cuz its so complex and evriting. not even fun at all. alright. i think amaths test was easier than physics! probably bcuz all i studied for physics didn't come out! and i did not study for amaths at all. weird isn't it. THEN. was feeling really stressful. wanted to scream!! head throbbing with pain for the last two days. i feel pathetic. i feel so sick and yet i m not. argh. last nite had difficulty slping again. had nightmares. and i actually sleeptalked till i woke myself up. thats so stupid. went to see the vb match at tp. hais sad they didn't win. but nvm! our sch so li hai! haha.. okay lar. don't feel like writing on. haha. many ppl talking abt valentine's day. but we have CO!! no, actually that isn't a prob. its just that nobody to go out with. sad case. Monday, February 06, 2006
4:16 PM ... the feeling is no longer as strong. IS IT? anyways. we had to run around the school during PE. damn. at first, i was like so relieved as we did not have to do the high jump. i totally suck at that. i'd rather have ran. BUT now i would gladly be embarrased in front of the whole class than to run like just now. not that i don't know how i'll turn out to be after running. cuz i m always liddat. i noe i force myself too hard. my heart is willing but my body isn't. haha. after the run, i felt peculiar. it was as if my mind could not work. i didn't noe what i was thinking at all. it was as thou my soul had left my body. hahaha. i wanted to cry. but i just couldn't. OKAY. i don't want to feel like that ever again. Pls.. well. brian turned up during english period. it was like so comical. when he heard lihui's email he was like TRYING to laugh but he couldn't open his mouth. lol. cuz he go pull out teeth then theres a cotton wool placed there. gross. it seems so awful. i wouldn't dare pull out my teeth. no i won't. the cartoonist guy came over for assembly again. haha. i thot it was more interesting when he came over last year. there were also much more applauses. haha. even so, it was nice learning how to draw. lol. junqun's spongebob is so cute. and peijun's one look like small kid drawing.. not surprising. haha.(= went to kfc after school. did the social studies hw. i m such a good girl(: have to study physics and a maths now. but i just noe i'll do badly for BOTH. sian. -8 days to valentine'sday. but so what. Sunday, February 05, 2006
7:13 PM feeling untypical. the whole day was spent on this machine which i use to blog this entry. okay. so i exercised for half an hour. AT LAST. know what. i typed out almost all the notes from the physics textbook chapt one and four into this machine without knowing exactly WHY. i was typing continually without giving a damn what in the world i was exactly doing. my mind seems clogged up. its all jumbled and hay-wire. argh. i've had enough. i m no longer gonna wait in vain. there won't be anymore disappointments. no more bitterness nor dejectedness. and so now i kiss goodbye to this puppy love.. I GUESS. hais. i m like so fickle. will that all be just empty talk. time will tell. > i can't carry on thinking. cuz my brain's not functioning 2:19 PM Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, But try to hide it in every possible way. He's only a friend, and nothing else, That's the lie you keep telling yourself. You keep on saying he's just a bud, But deep inside, you're falling in love. You get so giddy when you meet his eyes, But keep reminding yourself it isn't right. A simple glance turns into a stare, But you pretend that you don't care. It's "not right" for you two to be. Is that why you hide it so no one can see? But how long will you pretend? Keep lying that he's just a friend? Perhaps your feelings you can never show. Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know. Your friendship can't be risked over this, So being his girl is an Saturday, February 04, 2006
10:09 PM i can relate to this so well man. - I don't know how to tell you I don't know if you care I want to say I like you But I don't even dare It's true you may not like me But I can't help the way I feel I don't know why I feel this way But I know this feeling is true You don't know how hard it is To see you but cannot to care There's nothing else that I can do But just to secretly stare Sometimes I just want to cry And wash this feeling away If only it were that easy I wouldn't be feeling this today... ): 7:10 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!! guess what. todays chu 7, meaning its ren re!! ren ren dou sheng re. lol. dumb(: anyways, the poem below was written by ZHENGHUI. i was like ohmigoodness! haha.. it doesn't really relate to what i feel.. but i sure thought it was good(= So tell me you care by zhenghui! (: So tell me you care If you really do If you said you don't I wouldn't believe you Tell me you want me back Right by your side That if I wasn't around You'll be sure you'd have died So tell me you feel The love growing in your heart Tell me you feel for me And how much you wish we wouldn't have to part Tell me you think of me Even when you're busy Tell me that forgetting me Isn't very easy So tell me you need Me being there Tell me you really do I believe you care Tell me you wish That I was around That without me, there was no fun And that you'd be bound So tell me you care If you really do If you said you don't I wouldn't believe you -10more days to valentine's day. >The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. >It is most painful to smile while crying inside.. Friday, February 03, 2006
9:01 PM friendster horoscope The Bottom Line Torn between doing it for yourself or for someone else? You can find compromise. In Detail Okay, so they've called. Again. And you really, really want to see them. In the long run, what you want right now really doesn't matter. When it comes to one-to-one relationships -- which just so happen to be your specialty -- you really shouldn't spend even an hour of your time with someone you know you won't be able to trust in the future. There's one very special person out there looking for you, and if you're smart, you'll wait to go forward, and leave the past where it belongs. okay. so i don't really understand what this means. but i've already left the past. and i'll just have to wait. 6:04 PM how come i keep getting into trouble with teachers this year.. sighs. and its only the starting i guess. ms ng called me to see her after sch. she was like saying "VAL! valerie! come see me.." i alr knew what she was going to say even before she started. true enough. said that i was getting distracted by cy and brian in class. that i wasn't paying attention like before. wanted to change our place on mon. i don't have an idea what she was saying. first she said she would give us a chance, then she said she gonna change our place, then she say she give chance, then she say change place.. in the end i don't know whether will change nots. and i hope NOT. not when we are already getting along quite fine. hais. okay then. i'll be dead serious during her lesson. actually i've gotta admit. we DO talk alot. and i m gonna change..if thats gonna help. just wanna everything to be alright.. okay. i kept laughing in class just now. guess thats also a reason why..u know. haha.. BUT thats me lar. what to do.. hah and then they two kept guessing who i have a crush on. lol. and i really don't wanna say. i don't. it will just cause many problems lar.. haha. i m SO dead. scared they guess correct. =/ i shall not say more. so well. went to tm with peijun after sch. we went to the basement to have nasi lemak. haha.. and i was filling her with details abt what happened today. strange how much i can say to her when i have to think hard of what to say to others. haha. the feeling's just so different lar. then we proceeded upstairs. bought guo mei mei's cd at music junction. costs $17.90. actually her voice is nice. and i like the songs. hehe.. pj want me help her burn. next we bought bubble tea cuz very thirsty. went century square basement. a man in wheelchair asked us where ntuc was. but when we say there only got shop and save..and that ntuc was in tm.. he went v blur. and like he wasn't listening. then he wheeled off.. eh?? what the. reached home at around 3plus. tired. after i change into nice clothes then my mom told me today don't have class. dots! some more i da ban le.. lol. no lar. nvm. went to slp for an hour. zzz. thats all. - i'll probably just die heart. hope is lost. Thursday, February 02, 2006
7:52 PM scolded by mr chew today. cos didn't do the ss essay. actually its bcuz i did not pay attention that time. then dono need to do the essay. haha and i don't understand why too cos i actually "read thru" those pages in the workbook last nite. haha. had emaths test. had difficulty doing lar. like mind suddenly gone blank and can't rmb much. lol lucky got the fire drill. then we started discussing with each other. but then, i'd rather we retake this test. by then i'll make sure i study hard. (= had party after the test. well, some sort lar. i didn't eat the cake cuz FAT. hah. celebrated those whose b'dae in jan and feb if i m not wrong. we did the silent b'dae song. haha with our fingers to make the tune. lol. it was so funny(: i prefer ytd to today. cuz today seemed so short and uneventful. haha.. ohya. chem practical. hehe. i didn't realise i actually did the practical correctly that time. i was so clumsy and believe it or not, that's the first time i did it by myself, individually. last time always just stand there watch partner do most of the job. haha.. and i quite like my crystal.=) and i tink i did badly for english ca. i just noe it. i was writing crap. hah. CO.. was spent mostly with zhangbin toking to us about cny tingy. he ask us all how much angbao money we got. whalao. the sec two gary got $800! pls lor. i tink i need four years of cny to get that amount!): zhangbin ask us sec threes to buy the grade tingy [kao ji] book. costs $30! and i m not into erhu. somemore only till middle of next year. should i buy nots? sian. haha! and yes, he said i improved. cuz last time i neva use the gong till alot. now better(: and sec two learn SETS already! siao ar. i don't even noe how to solve! cos its the union tingy intersect dono what..and without diagram! just on the spot. throw my face. the sec two nicholas or what ask me. dots.. i m so stupid! tmr is gonna be an even shorter day. and i m not grateful for it. lucky there's hist lesson! got the 3e3 ppl come over. hehe!(= i m getting lazier and lazier each day. argh. and not to forget, fatter too. i just hope i won start shrinking. cos by then, i'd be reduced to nothing.-_- ` sometimes i just wanna know the way u feel abt me. at other times, i just wanna keep it the way things are like.NOW =/ Wednesday, February 01, 2006
6:49 PM HAPPY B'DAE DE HONG! haha i've decided to blog everyday if i've got the time. (= it was alright today. the usual routine lar. just back from maths tution. time was extended by half an hour. and all i learnt was emaths quadratic which was taught erm..the first maths lesson in sch? bcuz we've got emaths test tmr..hah. back aching now. i feel so tired and lazy so i doubt i m gonna exercise later on. haha.. have not exercise for a week cos i m always so TIRED(: lol excuses(x and i m getting fatter! argh. its a wonder how i manage to stay awake in class. its an improvement yar. i m learning self-control haha.. also, i don't even bother to wear my specs thou i m practically "blind".. so i m always seeing blurred faces of the teachers. LOL. sang the hei se mao yi and ge qian AND yumin sch song with brian during ace period. kept going out of tune.. =/ haha.. it was so damn boring okay. i don't fancy ms ng's lesson. well well.. most of the time spent in class was chatting with yunjie chinyang and brian. lol what else could i do.. and chinyang showed me his storybook by sue townsend. haha and yar. that first page.. man. seven times..or MORE. sheesh. haha and we are always crapping in class. it is actually fun to see both yunjie and chinyang bullying each other. hehe.. i m beginning to like this sitting arrangement. (: lol ohyes! physics test is postponed to next tues. meaning i'll have extra time to revise. YAYs!=D |