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Sunday, May 31, 2009
1:16 AM gonna do my quiet time.... need to talk, need to pray...:) Did you not know that I must be about My Father's business? . . moving things in the spirit:) 12:35 AM what is your purpose?
i can hear the sound of a rising generation not afraid of love, or dreaming of the future~ For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain [Philippians 1:21] today's service was really impactful. however throughout i wasn't really thinking about myself, but about people in my life. praying that God will somehow speak to them through this message, to open up their eyes greater, and to see that sometimes it's just coming back to Christ once again, it's about walking into God's destiny for us. i'm so so glad that sher came for service today. i love her to bits. and i know God loves her even more so.:) now is the time.... we cannot miss this opportunity not when we are young... time flies, soon we will all be adults. and we would have missed this chance to make an impact in the schools etc. change your family, your cca mates, your school... . . do not assume... i dont like people to 不分青紅皂白 do not assume. do not judge, "why do you have to go and make things so complicated~" (haha sharyl and i were singing this song all along to the train station,so fun:)) . . i am serious God. it must count for something, for more than just words. it must be lived out in my life. where my words translate into action. Saturday, May 30, 2009
3:23 AM take our five loaves and two fishes. do with it as You will. take our fears, our burdens, our ambitions... You can work miracles.... all You need is my 'amen' 3:13 AM moving mountains.
just dawned upon me.. i feel it's a time/season of praying and fasting. like seriously pray and fast... there are many things in our lives that sometimes we really can't do anything about it, except to pray... i feel that God has so much more in stored, and He has the answer at the end... as long as we keep believing...keep dreaming...keep staying faithful. pray. fast. tenacity. it's going to happen, for all of our lives, no matter what we are going through now... pray. He shall regard the prayer of the destitute, And shall not despise their prayer. [Psalm 102:17] 2:59 AM take control Lord.
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It'd been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention she was going way too fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn't even have time to cry She was so scared She threw her hands up in the air Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock And for the first time in a long time She bowed her head to pray She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life I know I've got to change So from now on tonight Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on . . was introduced to this song a year ago, although it's not a P&W song, it never fails to speak to me:) . . everything's falling into place... Your promises truly never fail Lord. weekend service later on! cannot wait....:) i can feel that it's really going to be powerful.... can feel it... hahaha... Thursday, May 28, 2009
7:29 PM <3
waiting for yunfang and yiying to come to church right now to study! haha... and Pst Lia's having worship team prac now... it's so powerful, so anointed... i love the Depths of Your Love :) . . anyway this afternoon heard the WT playing 'my greatest love is You' before i went to meet jess! really really really powerful. wow. . . 'dinner' with jess and friends was very interesting. haha the way they communicate with one another is so funny... wonder how it's like having that every day... hahaha... i can't wait to go shopping soon:) . . Call me deeper into Your grace The river that flows from the Holy Place Wash over me, cleansing me through My greatest love is You 4:05 PM yay!
wow God is good! just yesterday i decided to sms Aunty Kelly if i could teach Keryn tuition:) wanted to gain some experience with teaching children too. it was great, because she replied saying that God truly answers prayers! she has been thinking of finding a tutor for Keryn! and just 5 min ago, someone from a tuition centre called me up... and offered me a tuition assignment with a K2 boy!! haha.... this has always been what i wanted- to teach tuition! flexible and i've got passion for younger children!:D wow wow so exciting! new experience, new things to learn:) GOD IS GOOD! evelyn was proclaiming that yesterday on the train ride too:) haha... truly:) 1:28 AM be strong!
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe Someone's watching over me just found out from yiying the website to convert youtube videos to mp3! hahaha it's super duper cool man!!! :) It doesn't matter what people say And it doesn't matter how long it takes Believe in yourself and you'll fly high And it only matters how true you are Be true to yourself and follow your heart . . i wanna wanna get the normaderm:) it seems really good. hahahaha...:) schools great with pretty and wonderful girls like annlynn, yunfang and yiying! :) even though there's....... hahha shan't say!:) Wednesday, May 27, 2009
1:44 AM  burdened. keep going on. keep believing. move. move. move. pray. pray. pray. 12:51 AM is it all or nothing
It is a fool who looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart today was a rainy day! probably the Red Rain fever hasn't been over yet.... hahaha... anyway, had follow up with val:) felt good, growth is coming yeah...breakthroughs, drawing nearer, getting out and UP:) washed one toilet bowl in BMI before settling hospi accounts... hahahah we took really long, but i liked doing it with the girls... don't like accounts:P, but love the people doing it together with:) stomach's growling again, it has been like this everynight! haha... i need to be fed. . . . Mercies that rise with the new morn Set me apart as a new born Each moment I live, by faith I believe With You I'm never alone Darkness may come, trials seem so long You are the light I depend on Through valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong My shelter, refuge and song I trust in You Everyday I live I know You are my God I lift my face and look to you my God Even when the mountains tremble And a thousand fall I will stand with You My Jesus Take my all Tuesday, May 26, 2009
12:27 AM love; a decision
love- is it better to give or to receive? it's not something that should be answered so readily, in life it's a little bit of both. but yes, giving will make someone feel more satisfied though...somehow. but stil, we all need love...:) the world is crying out for something... the world is crying out for love. and we all need the greatest love of all, every single day. coming back to my first love again and again... that's what i'm gonna do. no matter how old we are, or even how long have we been in church/saved, we always need to come back to God...to our very first love..day after day love is a decision. i've decided to love. to give love, no matter whether will there be a return or not. it is a decision. . . this is my prayer that You would move every heart will tremble as Your Spirit captivates this place Monday, May 25, 2009
12:47 AM simplicity.
Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears  simple, pure... just loving You. . . isn't this what we are here for? isn't this why we are doing all we are doing? . . tired, but i really need to talk... really need to. God, move. MOVE. Sunday, May 24, 2009
9:56 PM we all fall down
we've all come so far a burden, a stone, a wrecking. many things not understandable, but my prayer is that one day i'll understand it all. or at least most of it. change is inevitable, but can we all hold on... can we all stay faithful to the promise God has given to us? if there is change, will it be to good or to bad? it's always easier to walk away isn't it? it's always easier to take the wider route-the route that seems the most easy. life is all about trials.... it's never easy, that is reality. can't people be more simple in the sense that... they will trust in God just like how they did the very first encounter with Him? it's not easy, yes, but with God.... all things can be overcome. that's the assurance we can always get... no matter what, yes no matter what.... God has the remote control. 1:52 AM change from inside.
i won't give up Red Rain was really really good today:) i know it's gonna be even better tomorrow.... it was a super cool day! hospi was great, everyone enjoyed serving, everyone did a great job:) we were all really tired at the end of the day, but we took away a really great sense of satisfaction with us.... it's such an awesome feeling, like you really gave your best and you know everyone's happy:) we are gonna grow up to even greater heights! hahah (so prss~) was on the train back today (feeling so great) then was thinking of stuff... when the scene of Gavin dancing during RR concert jus now came to my mind! haha... and it really reminded me of 2 years back when Gavin first stepped into singpost during the RR concert... he was stil stoning there the whole time... and now, he's standing there one stage, BOLD, dancing in front of a thousand of people! wow how God truly has changed him! and... it's even more amazing that the CD he received today from the dancing, he actually gave it to his new friend- elroy! how cool is that right?? GAVIN- you're awesome:D that is why.... RED RAIN can change lives! literally.... it's like after 2 years...you see how God has impacted their lives...and you look in retrospect and say "wow, i'm glad i invited him/her to the concert!" :) . . i really was very impacted by one song today, but i can't find the lyrics now... haha i will find it soon:) . . another prayer tonight, God's gonna move...:) 1:29 AM RED RAIN 2009!
   IT'S RAINING RED THIS 23/24 MAY! don't miss out on it man!! this will be my 3rd year with Red Rain! yay cool!!! do come along with me!:) Saturday, May 23, 2009
9:53 AM it's raining red today!
what a night, slept really early(bcos it's before 12!) feeling much better after that terribly throbbing headache, but stil feeling the slight pain in the back of the head oh, how irritating is that... hahaha... especially when today is RED RAIN!!! miracles are gonna happen today... people are going to be moved, touched... more than just any other ordinary rock concert, lives- changed, transformed. i can't wait, Red Rain's gonna rock the world today but not just the natural, but even more so- the spiritual:) seeyouuuuthere! Friday, May 22, 2009
1:12 AM till i see You
i want to sign Your name till the end of this day knowing that my heart was true. . . nothing matters when You're here with me in the end just to hear You say "well done" bowing before Your throne. 12:59 AM i believe in miracles.
We all have rights to dream, so dream high and try to reach. tired until cannot tired already! haha... what a looooong day! fulfilled! RED RAIN IS GONNA ROCK SINGAPORE MAN! hey you, you are so gonna get blowned away!! :) . . gonna eat durians now!! before i go to sleep.....:) sleeping early tonight....because i'm too tired:) hahah, julian's sleeping on my sofa :( so i'm gonna sleep on his bed tonight. man.... . . keep dreaming, don't ever stop. because if you do, it will never come true. Thursday, May 21, 2009
1:18 AM mummy's girl.
i think mummy's super funny, i cannot stand her!!! this was what she sms me on my way to school just now.... mom: haha, my student has a small round fish bowl filled wif fishes. 2 cats perched on top. it was so amusing 2 c the cats trying 2 eat the fishes but they couldn't. hahaha! val: hahaha, why you suddenly sms me that? haha.. mom: 4 fun, pleasure of life 4 u 2 enjoy and feel happy. HAHAHA. mom: 敏怡，你沒有說謝謝媽媽帮你做 val: 謝謝媽媽帮你做 mom: 哈哈，說謝謝你帮我做mango and sardines... . . haha my mom sometimes really amuses me with her words and actions man!! . . i was telling my mom i didn't want to marry someone who doesn't like durians... mom: cannot liddat lah... what if God gives you someone who doesn't like durians? you never know what God will give you... what if He asks you to marry a foreigner? then you must marry lah.... val: i don't want to marry angmoh lah... mom: but if God gives you, then you must what... val: !!! He will give me the right one lah, which will confirm not be angmoh mom: this kind of things cannot say one.... you never know. val: !!!!!!! i love my mom:) even though sometimes she says the weirdest things. hahahah... . . soften, i pray for a softened heart. Wednesday, May 20, 2009
2:08 AM a shepard's heart
#1 walk away #2 decide to do something if you have a shepard's heart, you can't walk away... this is not TV, this is not a game, this is REAL LIFE. it's going to cost you. because when the going gets tough, the easiest thing to do is walk away... but why do i stay? because i can't go... because if it's in your heart, i just can't go... if it's in your heart, you're going to get there whether there's a road or not... -bill wilson . . someday i might understand, but for now, trust. Tuesday, May 19, 2009
12:52 AM sweet nothings.
it was a weird day but a cool day too! hahahaha... weird bcos i felt weird, cool bcos i felt cold~ hahah, nah. anyway... back to Angels and Demons.. ohman valerie, some things about you just never change.... hahaha, which is my level of comprehension and understanding of movies! i remember how people did not like sitting beside me during the movies in secondary one, because i will always be asking 'why ah? why liddat one? what's happening ah? how come?!' haha so i like those bimbo movies, which will be much easier to understand. haha no lah, joke! on a serious note, i wish i would understand movies better.... after the movie, went with loh anqi to walk around Tamp1 :) haha... tried frolick for the first time! i think orginal tastes much better than peach man. the highlight was going into this kids store... there were so many pretty dresses, those of the little kids ones (why are their dresses much prettier??) haha, took the largest size of a dress and decided to go to fitting room to try it on! (wanted another design but both of us were too tall to reach it man!)     haha i decided to post it up anyway, it wasn't as bad as i thought it looked after seeing it on venus' blog:)anyway the dress is super large lah, for fat people only... haha just look at the waist circumference! hahaha... . . val: i cant imagine being in an all girls school! abby: hahah is it abby: i thought you were from one abby: i thought so when i look at you val: HOW COME val: HAHAHA abby: HAHA YOU GOT THE LOOK abby: yeah val: HAHA GOT LOOK OR NOT ONE MEH abby: like girls school tend to be more outspoken by default ? abby: and damn noisy abby: and say the weirdest things abby: thats what my teacher told me abby: hahah val: wah laooooo val: so that's what you think of me abby: ya cause you damn noisy and say weird stuff val: :'( i'm so wounded by that abby val: hahahahahhahahah abby: I'M SURE VAL abby: I BELIEVE YOU AH . hahaha, abby's so funny. :) i like talking to her... will miss her in class man! hope she's gonna come Red Rain!! :) . . flow, River of God. Monday, May 18, 2009
2:08 PM revival.
drained... wet... excited... hahaha...it has been quite an adventure oh my. hadn't slept the whole night just now, after doing my stuff, i went to pray for half an hour at 530am, it was indeed pressing in man... made sure i got out of the house before my dad, haha and i headed down to nyjc... it was crazy, in a certain sense, but was there to deliver a certain word.(a sentence haha!) hahah, how amazing was that zhilin and myself had almost the same revelation- junyan and weicheng shall be great carriers of the revival... halfway during worship yesterday, just caught a small glimpse of the vision... "if you are able to change the school of today, you will be able to change the nation of tomorrow" -pst how. somehow this phrase just bam into my mind yesterday, :) prayer meeting was indeed really different today, not something really long... in fact it was one of the shortest ever... however i felt there was a different flow in the atmoshphere, something peaceful and not aggressive. really cool....thank God for His presence man... there's going to be something awesome happening right there in the school. and it's even more amazing that those 6 are the people who has always been the ones faithfully coming down on monday mornings (halfway praying it just strucked me) haha... zhilin, yongsiang, yiwen, weicheng, junyan, jiayin. they are so gonna rock the school man! just keep the vision strong, it is possible....:) haha i felt really outta my body/world throughout this morning. like hahah i can't really think straight. haha don't like that feeling man...like very disconnected from my body or sth. hahahaha.. and i think i was not speaking much sense. yiwen was -.-! haha... got home, slept for 2 hours. right now gonna meet loh an qi (venus) for lunch/movie! haha and jieru and zhilin.... excited!! we're catching the movie Angels and Demons! EXCITED. heard it's a really good movie!:) wet wet wet. it's raining, such a great day for sleeping.... hahah dont let venus hear me, she'll kill me ;) seeyou! going out now! 3:02 AM God of the GENERATIONS.
If you refuse to bow, you will not burn. The Son of God will walk with you through the fire. service was super duper incredible (really running out of vocab words!) you got to be there to experience it for yourself. Pastor How is amazing, he really is. ' I don't want to be the King, I want to be the King-maker '- Pst How amazing right? yes... we should not just look at the present, but we should look in terms of generations... how impacting and going down to the future generations is going to really make such a change to our nation and the lives of thousands and thousands... wow i really feel recharged over this weekend!! it's like BOOM. the life of God just comes into you :) what a sight it was to see almost every single one in the congregation bowing down to God just now... it was based on pure decision, it was the sight of a great revival, a great army. hahaha... I SEE RED, RAINING DOWN ON ME~ haha okay that was quite out of the flow. hahaha but it's because i'm planning for Red Rain hospi right now.... hahaha so exciting, so many things... hahahaha.... it's gonna be so so awesome! i cannot wait! :) Empty hands held high Such small sacrifice If not joined with my life I sing in vain tonight May the words I say And the things I do Make my lifesong sing Bring a smile to You Let my lifesong sing to You Let my lifesong sing to You I want to sign Your name to the end of this day Knowing that my heart was true Let my lifesong sing to You Lord I give my life A living sacrifice To reach a world in need To be Your hands and feet So may the words I say And the things I do Make my lifesong sing Bring a smile to You Hallelujah Hallelujah Let my lifesong sing to You . . Run. Fight. Win. Sunday, May 17, 2009
12:30 AM generations.
Just because people change and move on with life, it doesn't mean that they love you any less. hi, my name's Anastasia.:) please watch the movie Anastasia. haha... anyway it's quite tiring now, i want to bathe soon and sleep. today went to M&S and bought Percy Pig for hamper, haha it looks so cute!! makes me wanna buy some next time. mental note to self: buy percy pigs. awesome service today! 'the best church in the world has yet to been built' i can't wait for what God has in stored for us....i can't wait. maryse's testi was so powerful, just by looking at her today you really can't imagine how her past was like before... this is truly what it is all about- impacting lives one by one by one. RED RAIN 2009!! you cannot miss it!!! it's going to be the best concert of the year man..... anyway, i've been having this blog since secondary one. so faithful right...... never changing one. haha never changed a blog link before. hehhh. HAHA. today's a super cool day too! just 6 months ago, we were all praying for Nick Vujicic services. God gave Sharyl a vision of Ken ushering in church someday. she saw the image so clearly while we were praying. today, 16MAY2009.... the vision has come to pass!!!   ken ushering for the FIRST time today!! HOW POWERFUL IS THAT. hahaha our God is so real! visions (dreams) definitely can come to pass if you believe:) . . contact lens' drying up. too tired already:) . . keep fighting on, for yourself. Saturday, May 16, 2009
1:26 AM these are the days.
Dreams are real; all you have to do is just believe managing people exam is finally over. it's one of the hardest to study in my opinion, because i feel it's something that needs to be caught in the heart, and i don't like all the theory... haha but then, i think the paper's alright. i used mostly the things i really learnt, not memorise-but learn. PGSM's getting real exciting. this is what education is about-evaluation. i'm going to learn... learn and learn. not just plain reading it for exam and vomiting it out right after. studying for the sake of studying? it's not just about that piece of document paper, but it's the process of learning that i want to catch at the end of it all. i should enjoy my schooling years, because very soon i'll be out there working... and it's not going to be easy. infact, daddy's right. we should love to go to school...wait till you go out to the workforce, and you'll say 'those were the days' hahahha. went to study with sherlyn yesterday. :) miss her alot man.... i liked standing beside her ytd, bcos i was wearing wedges,:) hehh. she's a great studying partner- bcos she will nag and nag at me and make me concentrate and study! hahaha.... but i still love her very much:D     keep praying girl. rely on God's strength everyday. He loves you very very much.:) i'll be praying for you too. . . shall go to sleep. shall keep on dreaming... heh. Friday, May 15, 2009
12:57 AM the key.
Life is a story that only time can tell Jesus, if it wrecks my heart, it wrecks Yours even more. if it hurts, it hurts Yours even more. if i love, You love them even more. pray, keep praying, never ceasing. because prayer is going to move mountains. many times thoughts come in... thoughts that can kill. thoughts that attempt to crush every dream possible. but no. don't stop dreaming. don't stop dreaming for them. because you never know...what lies ahead. you never know how your dreams, can indeed come to pass. because... it definitely will. Thursday, May 14, 2009
12:06 AM one life to love.
when i'm shaking like a leaf, You're the comfort that i need what an interesting day. was on the train, with a group of teenagers just a metre away. heard one of them saying 'Hosanna' and it pricked up my ears! they were discussing about the meaning of Hosanna... guy1: "Hosanna in the highest... 是神对嗎?" guy1: " eh 我还记得 lyrics leh (started singing) Heal my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes to the things unseen, show me how to love like You have loved me... " guy1: " 这首歌好听 hor? " guy2: " 什麼 church 來的? " guy1: " heart of God church lor " guy2: " 你有去 church de ah? " girl: " 我 free 的时侯去 lor " girl: " eh 我去 heart of God 的时侯 hor, 每个人都对我很 friendly leh... 但我很 shy... " guy2: " Christians 不可以 pierce de ah? 那你还 pierce! " girl: " eh 我去的那个可以 leh, 可以 pierce lah! " guy2: " orh, 那不可以抽咽 ? 不可以暍酒 ah?? 什麼都不可以ah? " (mrt system: ~tanjong pagar) me: sian....-.---- i was am-chioing all the way man! hehhehee. had such an urge to go up to them and say " eh 我是从 heart of God church de leh.:) " HAHA. i think it was super funny... but you might not understand... SO if you don't understand what i typed, i can reenact the scene out to you! hahaha. just ask me.:) i will be so glad to act it out for you! HAHA. haha and yes, i love the non Christianese people. they are so real people... what a way to talk about church right? so funny but yet so cool... how they just seem to want to know more too, and just purely wanting to know... hahah, they made my day man.! . . anyway, got some egg tarts and a beautiful watch for mr fordster with cindy:) HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY! this might be the first time you reaaaaaaly like the prez. haha! i love surprises, don't you? :) . . another interview tmr.... because i pang-seh twice before. haha yes my fault my fault. hahaha shall sleep early-er tonight then! :) You only get just one time around, You only get one shot at this, One chance, To find out, The one thing that you don't wanna miss, One day when its all said and done I hope you see that it was enough, This one ride, One try, One life, To love. Tuesday, May 12, 2009
2:28 AM inspiration.
it is so easy to think that the world revolves around you, but all you have to do is stare up at the sky to realize it isn't that way at all. today was personal grooming class with kassey. it was just super funny, really funny! we're gonna miss this lecturer man... and i'm gonna miss annlynn, hong and all the rest who are having their holidays! RAH. tmr we're having school again, starting with the new module! oh i keep forgetting man...hahah.. went to hairloom and caramel with annlynn today. tried the strawberry cheese, while lynn had the sea salt caramel one. it's really really delicious. makes you feel happy eating it. and the ambience of the place is just so pretty and relaxing. would love to go back soon. was just reading Pst Kong's blog. it's very inspiring! VERY. Savings: Don’t save what is left after spending; spend what is left after saving. i think it's very practical...and i've got to apply it to my life:) and also, i really really think Sun is very strong. such determination to get well despite being ill and having all the pain. oh wow i really am inspired. she's incredible. going to borders tmr morning.... gonna start working hard and really learn from the books...:) will you stand strong? will you make Me proud? Sunday, May 10, 2009
11:30 PM mama hao.
mother's day in church has been terrific, really happy to see so many many moms in the house of God.:) yesterday, mummy came. i'm so glad to be sitting beside her in service. i'm not sure what's going to happen, but i would really wish to have my entire family serving in the same church as me;) mummy's style of worship is quite funny, but in a cute way. hahahah i have a cute mom. i think she enjoyed herself quite alot:) and after that, zheng and peijun and our moms all went to tamp1 together to walk around. it was quite aimless walking, but i think the company spent together was not bad...:) this is indeed one of the best mother's day ever! received feedback that many moms were impacted by the mama songs music CO played. it's very encouraging:) we are nearing our vision..... keep going on.... keep believing..... haha one silly incident was that last night i wore my contact lens to bed and i didn't even realised it AT ALL. it's like i seriously thought i took it out already, and was still deluding myself that i had... in the morning my eyes felt funny and i still didnt think i was wearing contacts because i couldnt feel them in my eyes!! but when i looked into the mirror and into my eyes, i saw the line thingy.... and i tried to pinch at the eyes and WOW, there was the really dried up contact lens-.-- haha and i really think our mind is so powerful. sometimes all it takes is not to dwell on the negative things, and to look forward and move on... i realised why do people get depress, disppointed and stuff, it's when they start to allow their mind to wander and to think of all the bad things... but, past is past. move on.... it's going to be better.:) and bejeweled in FB is indeed addictive.... hahaha it's not like super fun, but when i play... there's this attitude of cannot-say-die, so i keep trying over and over again in the hopes to beat the high score... (because everyone else is doing better!!) haha... tomorrow's monday. it's going to be a new week. i can't wait.....for things to change. fast to switch, valerie. believe. Saturday, May 09, 2009
2:02 AM P.U.S.H
peifen just told me she fasted for the whole week for her mom! everyday! isn't that amazing?! pf: " i can sense a difference in the spirit man. like there's an expectation. " that's the difference..... that's whats going to move heavens... to move mountains. FAITH. 1:45 AM back to your first love.
12 In Your mercy cut off my enemies, And destroy all those who afflict my soul; For I am Your servant. . . a prayer every day. 1:16 AM Where The Road Leads.
The road always leads back home, No matter which way your feet tend to roam. All my life this is what I heard people say, Many was the time I tried to go some other way. "There's no place like home," Have you heard this one too? When we try to leave we find this is so true. The surroundings familiar, the smell's so sweet, There's no place like home, our hearts repeat. Have you ever smelled something that takes you back in time? Or seen a scene that completely clouds your mind? Take a trip down memory lane and you will understand, That the road to home is something mighty, mighty grand. Think about all the times you wanted to run away, To find a place that gave a new start to another brand new day. And when you settled into that place all new, You found that to go home again was all you wanted to do. I've read that the road to heaven has many bumps and curves. It is mighty narrow, never widens, never swerves. So as you travel down life's road, And at times when you feel that heavy load. Know that there is a map to find your way home. You can call 911, but not on the telephone. Just put your hands together, close your eyes and bow your head. Remember all the Words to you so many times He has said. Home is where the heart is. Where is yours today? Is it safe with Jesus, or has it gone astray? Keep your eyes on Him no matter where you roam. Then one day before long, you find your road is leading home. Janice Derrick Friday, May 08, 2009
12:26 AM DECISIONS.
maturity comes with the acceptance of responsibilities today i got a greater insight to myself. and i gain a deeper understanding of that very phrase... firstly a change is needed in the heart and the mind. and a decision to change just needs a second to take place. actions speak louder than words. the opportunities are right there, so what's the reaction to them? . . anyway mama's day is coming already! i'm so excited for the mothers to come!!! we shall have a mothers revival!! :) and CO! we are going to pull down the presence of God in our playing okay!:) . . moo: do you have any resources that are useful for finding info abt hr? val: hongrui?!?! moo: ahh no HUMAN RESOURCE hahhahhahaha *faints* . . touch them deeper Lord. Thursday, May 07, 2009
2:24 AM WIND IS LOVE.
I LOVE THE WIND. wow wow wow! i think it's one of my fav objects man. ranked at the top~! <3 1:39 AM the bigger picture.
you are not going to win. i am not going to lose. annlynn just had a powerful revelation from God. it is truly and definitely and certainly from God. so accurate, so true.... God hears every single prayer, EVERY. i can't wait for the many many prayers we've prayed to come to pass! still remember that service on healing...we were believing for healing for lynn too... it's going to come to pass. it is happening. speaking of which, i just blew my nose yet again. and my mom commented "why don't you pray without cease? ask God to heal you lah." hahaha... yes, i think i should pray for my nose too. it's sometimes really a hindrance leh.. the way it runs...i can't catch up with it. anyway, CG was great:) i really want to get Pst Steve Munsey's sermon DVD! and it's really time to step into people's boats. love is a decision. annlynn cooked the love porridge for me today!! it's filled with lots and lots of LOVE. haha... and it's really yummy too! scallops~ my fav man! thanks girl! shall cook for you someday......and you better eat it hor. HAHA.    and yes, project project project. this is like the most difficult one of all, even worse than marketing. make things happen, make things happen, make things happen.... Wednesday, May 06, 2009
12:25 PM mummy's so funny. i smsed her "happy birthday! stay youthful always okay:)" and she replied "ok, if God permits!" HAHA. 12:49 AM subconsciousness
they may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel. -carl w. buechner it's been a long day! met up with valerie today:) TP has great food man... because it's kinda cheap so i like! i think she's someone i can spend quality time with... i like.:) anyway she started follow up today! it's really super duper cool... i see such hunger, from the way she copied down notes!:) and she actually said she doesnt do that in classes/lectures. so yeahh, i'm so glad for her:D and it's quite funny because there are people in the school who called out 'valerie!' but i resisted from turning around... because i knew it wasnt me..... but the one beside me.:) on the way to church on the bus, met hanping! hahaha call it coincidence?? had prayer with dear pf aka ariel today! she bought the gold crocs with the ariel button on it!:) everyone should get crocs man!!! hahaha... our prayer was a really long one! when we started out, the sun was still bright... and when we finally opened our eyes, it was already dark! but yes, it was a great time of prayer... can't wait for mother's day!!! went down to borders with hong aka benjamin. borders is one of my fav places:) spent an hour over reading through the Ritz Carlton book. wow it's really sucha zai book! i was so tempted to bring it out of the store..... learnt so much just from scanning through it man! i think when you really wanna learn...wanna gain knowledge... it really gets pretty exciting. that's what i like about learning, based on your own hunger and passion.... you gain much much more... man.. i'm feeling so tired right now! and we've got our project to complete!! hahaah gotta really make things happen man! GOT TO. my eyes are closing, i better go get a nice bath first:) Tuesday, May 05, 2009
1:14 AM spiritual warfare.
mom's praying in the living room right now. i feel her burden....for my dad...for things in her life. she's speaking out loud verses... my heart's pounding faster than usual right now. a glimpse into the spiritual realm. was just reading the book 'this present darkness' the spiritual is as real as the natural. it's so real, so so real. that's why it is so important to pray. we are FIGHTING a spiritual warfare everyday. that is why we cannot give up... cannot give up this fight. it is REAL. but God reigns over all. our God is not small, He is powerful. He is almighty. He has victory over EVERYTHING. i believe....in the power of Your name. there is such great power in prayer. i need to pray more tonight. Monday, May 04, 2009
2:36 PM building sandcastles.
you know you're really tired when you can sleep through perspiring without any source of ventilation.... man, haven't felt so tired after a long time. haha probably after effect of 24 and two nights of sleeping less than usual. the most amazing thing about my sleep is that.... i always always have dreams/nightmares! never once will i not have them man. it's a matter of whether i remember them in the morning. hahah. anyway i dreamt of stupid stuff just now, hopefully i can still recall while typing right now. i was on the train with a couple of friends and then realised that hey there's school today! and it was already 7pm. and for dont know what reason we had to alight at tampines MRT. and i (dragged myself) out?! but turning back to the cabin, i realised my bag was inside.(?!) so i rushed in to grab it... heaving a sigh of relief! then in the next split sec, my friend beside me (who ah? annlynn right?!) exclaimed that my HP was stil in the train... i turned around and alas, YES. man... i literally jumped inside and grabbed it and managed to come out with the door closing a few cm away from my face. woah scary! and for dont know what reason again, in the midst of jumping out of the cabin, i fell to the ground... do i was like lying flat on the floor or sth (near the tracks).. and was trying to crawl upwards away from the track. to cut the very long story short (because it's really very long) my friend and i went to find a toilet(haha even in my dream also need toilet) because i was super urgent.. and i dont know why, we climbed a treetop ladder.(?!) and halfway i was scared of heights and thought i was going to die. HAHAHA. in my dream, there was gonna be school on tues, wed, thurs and friday because the lecturer was evil and wanted to give us tests everyday on the certain topics to evaluate our progression. (if you are truly my classmate you'll know that's quite absurb ahahha) anyway the images are still in my mind, but it's really not easy to bring all of them out in words! hahaha... but still, i love to dream because it really makes sleeping more interesting.:) 1:12 AM the art of letting go
just chanced on some material on the net. insights man....cool. but after all these, more importantly i've still gotta get some insights from God later on. to let go, let God. . . well, i would consider letting go as the actual moment when one decides that whatever emotional baggage they're hanging on to is no longer worth holding. At the moment that that baggage is released, letting go occurs. . "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference." . For most it's a deeply entrenched habit that is not going to give up without a struggle. The mind will work ever so hard to have the thinker, the person, believe that the past way of reacting to a situation is the only way to react to that situation. . The mind wants the mind holder to believe that there is no other way to respond to the events that Life throws at us. . Letting go is outside the mind. Letting go is seeing that what is, is. And any amount of denial, fighting, resisting, arguing, wishing, or bargaining isn't going to change what is. . The salient question right here and right now for you, my dear reader, is: Are you willing to wipe off the canvas of your Life, and start now clean, clear, and new? by Andre Best Smell a flower,enjoy the laughter of a child, share a moment with a friend. . . 1) Take responsibility for your feelings in other words, other people do not "cause" your feelings. you choose them. 2) Walk away from disappointment shake it off and step up 3) Forgive forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behavior is okay. and forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the hook... forgiveness is about letting yourself off the emotional hook. it's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviors. it's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future. . . . God, only in You can we find true freedom:) in You can we find the strength to carry on... coming back to You over and over again... back to my first Love. You said it was going to be easy. i believe...in Your promise of faith:) Sunday, May 03, 2009
11:23 PM this moment.
all He requires is just ONE. sometimes all it takes is to just slow down in life... when everything around you seems to be moving so fast. to slow down your thoughts... and just to enjoy that moment you have. come to think of it, there aren't really any regrets in my life. that's because even if things which i really do not like happened...looking back, it has all brought me to where i am today. there are certainly things people might not see, but God sees and He knows.:) heh. tonight will be a night of dwelling. let go, let God. 10:19 PM love on rebound.
love is not a feeling/emotion... it is a decision. service with Pst Steve Munsey was INCREDIBLE (wow i've ran out of vocab already) hahahaha it was amazing truly. you gotta be there to experience it for yourself! it was seriously mind blowing, and can sweep your feet off the ground! and doing guest hospi today was indeed a privilege!! what an honour to serve~ rinnah was super funny in admin office today. she was playing the 'chop chilli chop' game with many people. and she went really high and sang 'no matter what happens!! here i am standing!!' at the top of her voice... hahahah so funny man!! and i heard her saying to Pst Lia in the early noon 'tai yang gong gong~' so adorable:) anyway i've got a ministry of manpower interview that shipei intro tmr morning at 930am!! RAH i'm so lazy to wake up that early and travel all the way to tanjong pagar man! just kill me.... hahhaha. man..... i'm seriously exhausted now. hahaha i think it's more of brain dead. cause i'm falling asleep on the computer. and it's only 10.30PM! goodness valerie. 2:26 AM LIVING RAIN.
wow it's raining!!!:) i really LOVE the smell of rain, the feel of rain, the sound of rain, the sight of rain...... and the sky's pink:) LOVELY! zhilin and i are complaining about our hungry-ness right now on MSN HAHA. we are seriously craving for food! can it drop down from heaven? wish it'd rain down some carrot cake and sotong NOW! :) anyway! today's service was just fantabulous! it's like one of the best ever man:) Pst Lia preached on anointing, and even though i heard it before.... it felt like a new source of strength and revelation! ANOINTING~ that's really in my season right now man.....:) beyond my natural abilities. into Jordan.... there truly is a breakthrough in this House! 24 was great, really moved somewhere spiritually:) spiritual atmosphere was like BOOM. really, power. i'm so happy for valerie ang:) i know God really spoke to her, and touched her today! it's so amazing how a little step of faith can touch heaven. i was so moved when i saw her lifting up both hands to worship God:) truly, it's one of the most beautiful things ever. . . caught a little of zone f service too today.:) dom showed us the video of a song titled "cinderella" super moving song. i love it.to bits. but it's really sad what happened afterwards, how his daughter really went away. but... undying commitment. i admire this man of God. really. Cinderella- Steven Curtis Chapman She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays Without a care in the world And I'm sitting here wearing The weight of the world on my shoulders It's been a long day And there's still work to do She's pulling at me Saying "Dad, I need you" There's a ball at the castle And I've been invited And I need to practice my dancing Oh, please, Daddy, please?" So I will dance with Cinderella While she is here in my arms 'Cause I know something the prince never knew Oh, I will dance with Cinderella I don't want to miss even one song 'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight And she'll be gone... She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed She wants to know if I approve of the dress She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away And I need to practice my dancing Oh, please, Daddy, please?" So I will dance with Cinderella While she is here in my arms 'Cause I know something the prince never knew Oh, I will dance with Cinderella I don't want to miss even one song 'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight And she'll be gone She will be gone Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand Just glowing and telling us all they had planned She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away But I need to practice my dancing Oh, please, Daddy, please?" So I will dance with Cinderella While she is here in my arms 'Cause I know something the prince never knew Oh, I will dance with Cinderella I don't want to miss even one song 'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight And she'll be gone Friday, May 01, 2009
5:50 PM departures
i'm gonna knock out anytime. hahaha i'm literally dozing off in front of the com while tagging photos in FB! 24 WAS AWESOME! the other session i went for d50's at 2pm. ' do not sell away your dreams and visions....' yes, my greatest honour is truly to serve God all the days man.:) anyway! we went to send carlo off! it was really just crazy fun we had together, but when the time got for him to go... it was very sad... then we were all quite alright, until he went in and everything... then some of us started to tear. and it's like a domino, one person cry then when others see also wanna cry. haha... yeah, but i think we will all miss him very much.:) come home quick carlo!! malcom tweeted that you really truly know how much you love and care for someone only when the person is gone... yes so we must really treasure and not take the people around us for granted!! we have only one life to live! and nicholas, faster upload the photos:) i can't really think straight right now.... hahaha too tired already! brain's shut. gonna go nap!! see you:) i dislike all sorts of departures; but this is part and parcel of life. uh huh. hahah. 4:42 AM craziness at 5am
  this is what happens at just a timing!!! if you realised, the first photo... benjamin hongrui was yawning! hahaha. hahah anyway the girls have all conked out- zhenghui zhilin and venus. and even gavin right now. haha! i think my body clock has switched, that's why i'm stil able to survive. anyway, carlo's going off in a matter of hours!!! CARLO WE'LL ALL MISS YOU MAN! but you'll definitely be back after 3 years! by then you'll be 22, and we're 21! WOW. keep staying strong in God okay!! :):):) gonna go home soon! sending carlo off in the morning, oh man. gotta bring some tissues along! and then 24 at 2-4pm with d50! gonna be super power again!! and then CO! and then supper with deon, hanping! BAH. happening man!! (haha i think this is the effect of not sleeping;)) . . Psalm 55
For it is not an enemy who reproaches me; Then I could bear it. Nor is it one who hates me who has magnified himself against me; Then I could hide from him. But it was you, a man my equal, My companion and my acquaintance. We took sweet counsel together, And walked to the house of God in the throng. . . As for me, I will call upon God, And the LORD shall save me. Evening and morning and at noon I will pray, and cry aloud, and He shall hear my voice. He has redeemed my soul in peace from the battle which was against me, For there were many against me God will hear, and afflict them, Even He who abides from of old. Because they do not change, Therefore they do not fear God. . . Cast your burden on the LORD, And He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved. 2:04 AM ANOINTING.
just came out of 24 prayer.:) it was just so powerful, that even my words now can't even describe it. " anointing of God is upon you right now... the anointing oil will smoothen all rough edges. any friction right now will be made smooth. the anointing is on you.... new levels. " wow, as dom was praying for me, it was just repeatedly anointing of God... the anointing of God. and that was EXACTLY what i've been praying for these past weeks. as i lay down there, i could feel the weight upon my arms. it is real. it is happening. anointing upon my life right now.:) |