have you ever wondered about your purpose of what you were called here for to just exist into nothingness or is there something more
have you ever loved somebody so much that it hurts part of you wants a relief yet the other says to believe
have you ever felt like crying but held back all those tears only to know that by letting them out brings strength into your fears
have you ever wanted to help this world full of anguish and sorrow doing away with the nonchalance filling it with love not shallow
have you ever tried solving but not finding any answers and the only thing you could do is to ask and seek for wisdom
have you ever been let down subtly building bitterness within the unfairness of it all clouding your soul so much that your heart's turned cold
have you ever realized later on that it was time to let go to allow forgiveness to flow opening a pathway for God to mould
have you ever felt stuck with noises and screams in your head praying hard for peace and a leeway for them to fade
have you ever felt that sometimes time seemed to be running out wishing for it to just slow down so much that you want to shout
have you ever believed your dreams would all come true today appearing to be a fantasy but tomorrow transforming into reality
have you ever needed somebody but only to find none and as loneliness draws in realizing what you need is Company
have you ever thought that you knew it all but realizing later on that you know nothing at all
have you ever understood that all you need is to simply lift up your eyes and see all that God has called you to be
and you'll discover finally just like when you were a baby from the top of your nose to the tip of your toes that you... belong to Him.
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Anastasia
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
3:13 AM
BIGGER.
ENLARGE MY HEART
leaders meeting was really great(i need more vocab words) cant wait to hear it again 3 weeks later:) i'm gona think bigger, enlarge my heart!
Pst how's really amazing, i thank God for such great Psts!! never fail to inspire me, to propel me forward.. the next 60 days' gonna be awesome :)
create in me a clean heart, :)
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it feels really differently recently, like God is really moving me step by step, little by little it amazes me how God has always been there
it used to be impossible to imagine, but no longer anymore. :)
wow wow, this taste of freedom is incredible!
i love my God. very very much...
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p.s. who has paypal!
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i've made up my mind i deserve better than that.
Monday, July 27, 2009
2:12 AM
Just live your life with God inside You won't regret one moment of it And give all that you can for God For God
12:15 AM
My commitment.
I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I'm a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure.
I'm finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colourless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap living, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded.
I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labour by power. My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, deluded, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, preached up for the cause of Christ.
I am a disciple of Jesus.
I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me- my banner will be clear.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
11:47 AM
today's gonna be an awesome day! Pst Lia is the BEST! love my Pst so very much:)
God, let Your harvest in..
yesterday was great with Paul coming for service. it was really quite a miracle, and i am sure that it was God who brought him here. :) today shengxian is coming, (haha) let's pray God will touch his heart too.
woke up reading tweets this morning. i love reading them, :) really fascinating to know abt what's going on in ppl's minds or day.
we change our behaviour when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing - Pst Jammal Bernard (twitter)
3:21 AM
STAND
dont lose heart. dont lose purity. dont lose focus.
valerie, stand.
"But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God. " Acts 20:24
Saturday, July 25, 2009
12:53 AM
BREAKTHROUGH D5! we need to breakthrough again again again. Pst Lia's service is going to be sooo anointed.
dreaming for 10... by eoy.
it is possible.
let now our hearts burn with a flame.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
3:20 AM
i am so amazed oh man!
first off is nick loh, who delivered food with hongrui the previous time i stayed over at peijun's house:) haha.. and he fell off the chair taking photos! HAHA. hilarious.
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tonight, i was just saying that there isnt food in my house at this time, was hungry and everything. it was really just a casual saying. then! suddenly two angels(they told me to say this and not mention names) said that food was on the way to my house and reaching at 3.29am. (wow) apparently they called for macs delivery and paid for it.
the most irritating yet hilarious thing was this order receipt they gave:
Dear Cheong Val Sia, Thank you for choosing McDeliveryTM 24/7. Please note that your order number is TECC-090722-126.
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HAHA. cheong val sia-.- because... my name is valerie anastasia. so short form is val sia-.-! haha i am certainly really moved by such an act. :) i mean, really amazed. haha, it's really in HOGC that you find such sweet ppl yeah?:)
gonna enjoy my macs meal now! yayy. i am quite speechless but thanks man:) i am very blessed by people around me...:)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
3:11 PM
box you.
i dislike the sick bug or whatever creature that is looming over us. RAH.
jieru, annlynn, yiying, gabriel, nick just got sick last night, this morning? so many people are falling ill! RAH. worship session and follow up's cancelled today:(
but the evil creature out there, you are not gonna subdue us man!! we are so much more powerful with Jesus Christ!
God's our healer. everyone's gonna be alright! :) and it's gonna happen like NOW! yes, now! :)
pls take care girls and guys.:)
4:10 AM
true freedom.
when my troubles overwhelm, i sing God bring Your peace. i am free free, all my chains are broken. :)
have not felt like this. seems like the past month was really the preparation. God is certainly in control over my life.
substance is what you need now valerie. :) the invisible. that's what matters.
2:07 AM
it's different now.:)
i'm finally watching tv after sooooo long! haha, it's been months and months. and i'm watching The Ultimatum on mobtv. i know this is super lag bcos the show has already ended and i'm watching from episode one HAHA.
there's so much anger, hatred, revenge, politics in this show man. very interesting though. :) the world is indeed really complicated ya?
anw the theme song's really nice. :)
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
3:19 AM
she breathed in deeply, mastered all her courage for something she had not done in a long while. one step two step three; with trembling hands and the loud almost audible beat of her heart making her way through what seemed all-so-familiar yet strange altogether. as the wind blew and her teeth chattered she knew this simple act was being made known to heaven just like how it was light years away, yet totally different this time round. as information flooded her mind, expecting a surge of emotions to come but instead finding none. finally at the very last bit just one word; meant everything (yet nothing at all) . letting loose a cry she knew it was time to let go. holding on with all her might to the promise her Father gave: 'it's gonna be easy' not knowing much at all nor what was gonna happen next yet deep inside of her heart, mind, spirit sealing that covenant; a decision made.
Monday, July 20, 2009
2:19 AM
wah! i am so happy :) candace just asked me to pray for her!!! wow wow wow. :) of course i will man!!
God is a good God:)
1:04 AM
broken glass.
i always open this window earlier than i blog HAHA.
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anyway today's outing with mummy was okay. feels abit funny bcos it's not often we go out one-on-one and like very silent so must talk more. haha, but stil. i love my mom :)
it was actually this picnic at fort canning, with a pre-performance by academy and schools, and performance by singapore dance theatre. 'ballet under the stars' which really was placing mats on the grass and watching the performance... romantic eh? haha.
it's quite funny in the sense that it was my mom who wanted to watch it. and not me. i think she really really wants to spend time with me man. like really. haha. mummy loves me alot.
nevertheless, it was a great performance :) i really love ballet. the way they can express themselves through dance. such a spirit.
there was this song they danced to, it's really really nice! its so cool to see ballet in pop music :)
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anyway! D5 brokethrough!!! to 44! wow right?! and alot of them came from TPJC too. this is just super duper cool. revival is near~
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relationships are built on trust more than time and energy this was what gabriel said. quite inspiring right?? haha.. it's true indeed. trust is the most important of all in any r/s.
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i will always trust and believe in you man, as much as i really want to punch you badly. i guess when you really love somebody, you cant help but believe in them.
like what i saw qian tweeted, she was saying something along the lines of.. when you pray for someone, it really shows you love that person alot.
can i add something? when you pray for somebody until it even wrecks your heart so much that you tear/cry while praying that really speaks alot ya?
haha... greater things have yet to come. i know it i see it i feel it
Sunday, July 19, 2009
2:39 PM
heaven on earth.
i should be in church right now, but instead i'm at home bcos mummy wants to go for some picnic thing then watching a performance with her. and it is raining now! love rainy days lots and lots! (but wondering how are we having picnic later)
anyway i just wanna say.. i love my life! :) i've got a great God, family, friends, future. recently got really revealed of how fortunate i am:) bcos it's like sometimes when things are not well, we will tend to look onto the negative aspect.
however, just by looking at the photos of D5, i was really struck that my life is so so incredible. such wonderful people around me every day, real friends i can count on all my life. not just a mere 2-3 years of close friendship, but literally for eternity. :) people who will be there to encourage, to pray, to lend a shoulder to cry on.. friends who protect one another. and not just being friends to fit in or just to have someone by our side. it's amazing... the people in HOGC are. this is not something commonly found elsewhere:)
and i shall special mention, peijun. (since you did that too heh) it's so amazing how far we have come yeah? haha. we are gonna grow old together, achieve our visions in God:) see each other succeed in life, get married, start a family, being grandparents(haha!) such a beautiful thing rightt. haha lets keep believing and loving people.:)
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it was just an awesome sight yesterday seeing the PRSS uniform on stage and not just one, but two :) gavin and randyne. the next generation is always better. so very proud of them!
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listening to the song 'Valerie' HAHA. silly song leh. it's like the valerie is so havoc haha! why wont you come on over, valerie~
4:28 AM
You say that I alone can change the world But I know it's by the spirit of the Lord Come fill me up to overflow
Your ways amaze me and they make me say Your name is lifted high above the earth I'm gonna make You famous
3:00 AM
3 more days, sometimes it scares me at how fast time flies.
from the way i see things you are just trying to become somebody you arent i might not know your thoughts but i know you. do they really know you for real? .
i am eating chocolate that i bought in aust that time. and i did not even had a meal today. haha i really think i've been eating really unhealthy recently:(
EQUIP. it's time to shine like never before.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
5:22 AM
come.
problems.... solutions fear.... faith emptiness... love
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remember the days i used to playback the song 'So you would come' every single night :) and i remember how i would dream about the people in church in those nights.. never fails to bring me back to loving people...the heart for them.
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" If you don't know Jesus tonight This song has been written with you in mind The chorus says 'Come to the Father" You may feel like you have nothing to give You might have a broken heart, broken life But Jesus is standing here Saying 'Come.... to the Father.'
Before the world began You were on His mind And every tear you cried Is precious in his eyes
Because of His great love He gave His only Son That everything was done So you would come
And nothing you can do Can make Him love you more And nothing that you've done Can make Him close the door
Because of His great love He gave His only Son That everything was done So you would come
Come to the Father Though your gift is small Broken hearts, Broken lives He will take them all The power of the word, the power of His blood And everything was done so you would come
Thursday, July 16, 2009
3:02 PM
i think it's really cool that i'm a person who remembers things through visions. i'm a visual learner. :)
like for some they're the listening type (auditory learner), or the experiencing (kinesthetic learner) haha... personally i study/recall things through remembering how the book looks like, the exact page etc.. (it's like a photocopied image) and when i remember events, usually i'll remember how it looks like, the setting/place before i can recall what the people actually say.
till now, i can still remember the exact scene of the first day most of the ppl in d5 came to HOGC. :) like what i told yiying, i shall be her memory, remembering what happened and where she actually sat that very day. hahaha.
and furthermore, God reveals to me mostly through dreams (no wonder i dream so much! haha) but sadly, i can remember more of how to scene looked like in the dream, rather than what is being said in it! haha..which sometimes makes it hard to explain.
but dont you think this is so cool? i am God's creation, and He made me this way. haha! so what about you? are you a visionary, auditory or kinesthetic learner? :)
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anyway was just thinking of annlynn! she is really a fighter, and her love for school and church really really is just incredible. :) she tweeted this:
Mum asked what I wanna do after graduation. Quietly in my heart I said, 'to give God the best years of my life.' Just prayed for my family(:
haha it really takes someone 'abnormal' :D and really really just simply wanting to love God and serve Him and staying radical despite anything... to say something liddat(even though its in the heart, but God hears it;)
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alrights, today was semi-productive! haha, i better really learn and absorb asmuchasican tonight!! hahaha going to teach tuition now. it's a bitter sweet feeling. cause i am missing out half an hour of CG!! RAH. but to look on the brighter side, i will make it in time for the word :)
okay wont be online tonight (it's mugging time man!) and pray for my econs exam tomorrow alright? HAHA. FAITH is what i need. faith faith faith faith faith faith faith!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
11:22 PM
substance.
haha! it's actually already 2.30AM when i blog. cuz i opened this window and left it here for so long without typing anything. haha!
anyway! it was so exciting chatting with the girls on msn and talking about revival :)
today's leaders' meeting with Psts was just really really really really awesome! thoughts are being elevated, and yes the future is indeed going to be above all that we can ever imagine man! i really cant explain how privilege i feel to be in HOGC :) it's really beyond our minds imagination to what is gonna happen in our church!! oh wow. i'm stil blowned away hahaha.
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was just talking to yiwen on msn...
valerie! ; anastasia: you can do it bcos you are a world changer history maker hahah
valerie! ; anastasia: HAHAHAH OH MAN i gotta blog about this ahhahahaha so funny
- YYIWEN & -untoldsecrets.bs: LOL! like that may as well also add. buffet finisher 1.5litre bottle drinker. lol!
haha she's super nonsense man! but anyway we all got really excited to be serious for other people and to keep praying for them :) the harvest is plentiful, but where are the labourers?:) gotta do the invisible hard work yeah?
and...yiying's an amazing girl:) got so many dreams and visions for God even though she's only like a month old Christian in HOGC! God loves that child-like faith and simplicity man... hahaha.makes my day.
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to live worthy of Your call. :)
3:37 PM
last night studying was good, but this morning (afternoon) was arghhhh my mind is too lazy, it needs to wake up at the right time! haha it's like awake at night, and asleep in the noon (wrong!!)
man, i'm gonna study tonight more and more then to make up for this noon's work. haha and i realise i've been eating too much chips. i'm eating as i'm typing now.
gonna go out to teach tuition in 15min, and i cant wait for leaders meeting tonight! so many people are going from the cg, and it makes it even more exciting!!! wanna receive receive receive.
nick says one day my bb will send me to heaven (haha!)
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Monday, July 13, 2009
11:44 PM
valerie is miss determined.
i will be the head and not the tail. i will be hardworking.
am gonna mug tonight:)
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just to be by Your side there is hope in my life there is no greater freedom I'll find
so take my life and all that i have to give take my world just inhabit all of it take my dreams make me assuredly Yours
Sunday, July 12, 2009
9:54 PM
just noting down some thoughts before my mugging regime HAHA
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thoughts do change as we start to grow older how when we look at the world there's a different perspective
'when i was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.'
indeed, we are all maturing haha, and it really is a good thing. to see more and more and more. and to get better understanding of certain things.
however, i have and will always believe that even as we renew our minds, train our minds, mature in our thinking it is so important for us to continue guarding our hearts, keeping that child-like believe, that faith (reasoned trust in God :) that our hearts should not grow harder as we grow older instead there should be a continual humbling of ourselves even the more as we mature
funny how people in our lives are like that sometimes, in the sense that as they start to see more, decisions are made, changes happen whether it be personality or character, probably only insights can tell they can knowingly or unknowingly hurt and even cause many question marks in the ones who loved them to the very point that it's not that simple to just ask for honesty or something genuine to be shared it is always said that the ones who matter the most, are the ones who will cause the greatest hurts
however ironically as much as sometimes we get irritated, or sometimes we feel like just boxing these people we will never resort to such violence whether it be physically or probably intellectually emotionally spiritually (hahaha) it is as though even though we might not even understand as much as we really would want to
there is something stronger underlying this is something which no matter what the person becomes, does, speaks, portray etc it will never ever be moved?
somehow we believe we trust we have faith in them
that they are much more than they appear to be they have so much potential to walk in the destiny God called them out for
that sometimes you wished somehow somewhere somebody will just shout it down into their ears to break that hardeness break that disbelief break that unwillingness like hello~ there is so much more you can do with your life!! that you can do for other people, that there is love hope joy peace ETC
to find back that faith in God that reasoned trust in the only true and living God.
and the greatest love they can ever ever ever find
i will, stil believe in them as much as i can
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haha i better get to work NOW. i believe in the power of prayers God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above ALL that we can ask or imagine
9:21 PM
i still believe
i'm gonna off my com at 10pm and study real hard:) mug mug mug mug mug.
you must be willing to pay the price. you cannot want something for nothing man. woww i really really cant wait for what God will do in our church, how it's just going to get better and better world changers, history makers~ it's gonna come to pass. dreams DO come to pass. that 90% of invisible dimension is what is gonna bring us that success
this weekend was just beyond the limitation of our vocab! hahaha.. Dr AR Bernard, wow wow wow.
anyway i'm believing for 10 strong regulars in the team by EOY. God is a BIG God. it is possible. no limitations :)
i really love Find Me At The Cross. it is the song we worshipped during my very first connect group meeting in ftms. it was what really drew me to God :) phenomenal was awesome today!
in anticipation for something greater, something mightier God's promises will never ever fail us. NEVER.
it's been 23 days since the covenant, 26 since the decision. almost a month already... people say it's always the darkest before dawn (sth liddat) but i'm gonna pull through even till the very end. God will be serious with you if you are with Him.
let the love grow, let the love show God. :)
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it's too big we just can't quit
3:14 AM
one eye monster.
argh i dont like to take out contact lenses. it's like it clings onto my eyes and refuses to budge. RAH.
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anw i'm trying to type a long post with one eye open haha! cuz my right eye is tearing like dont know what and why also. weird rightttt (hope the lens is not in anymore!)
fri was truly a historical moment for HOGC!!! i need to note this down! Dr AR bernard and Pst Kong came to our church and wow was it phenomenal! its really like wow, how God is really moving in our church indeed, eyes have not seen and ears have not heard what God has in stored for us!
today was awesomely awesome toooo with Pst How preaching at zone f service for the very first time! knowledge, wisdom, understanding... even though i heard it before, today was really really great :) its different hearing it again and yes really really helps me now, i WANT to do well for friday's exam man! :) photog was not bad :) and i managed to catch quite a bit of Pst's sermon! it was really very very impactful to me. no limitations... of how we should not settle just on mediocracy. i wanna get both sermon CDs of fri and sat :)
okay it really feels very weird typing with one eye!!! haha..
anyway last night went to stay at venus and nick's house. intended to mug but failed badly, cuz was using the massage chair and study till i dozed off. haha! and the tub of cold water nick prepared for my ACHING feet (due to the very bad high heels), it was madness super cold. but still it helped :)
BB is awesome! i'm like messaging vanessa for free everyday , like she can message me saying she's waiting for the train at some place in france (dont know how to spell) hahaha cool right?
okay i cant continue typing with one eye already hahaha theres so much i wanna say!!
CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW! it's gonna be mind and spirit blowing! hehhh.
better catch some rest now. see you!
Friday, July 10, 2009
2:13 AM
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
3:34 AM
just broke fast:) prayed for the very important and special people in my life. God was so real. i could feel His tangible touch upon my hands as i prayed. that feeling, that presence i love so very much :)
read Psalms. love to read this book man.
Psalm 61:3-4 For You have been a shelter for me, And a strong tower from the enemy I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings.
:)
every heartbeat says thank You Jesus... i truly love my heavenly Father above.:)
and i want to unlock more mysteries...
people, you can run but you can never hide. so...trust in God. He is the answer to everything. big or small.
you know... God's plans for us:)
1:23 AM
i <3 my BB!
EVERYBODY SHOULD GET A BLACKBERRY!
hahaha seriously, for mobile phones it's gotta be BB for laptops, macbook! :)
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anyway here's some pictures which shows whats going on in my life/through my head:)
i miss keryn!
hongrui's bday cake
i did this with nail polish!! HAHA
under my blk:)
supper!
3 shades, yunfang painted for me:)
haha! we went to surprise ALYSSA! :) even though it was only a span of half an hour... we really had a great time!:) yiying gave her a box with photos inside, and a daily book of encouraging quotes! i gave her a very simple card.with my heartfelt words HAHA this is what loving people is all about...
anyway BB is really cool. haha that was random:)
i'm gonna break fast in an hour's time, then gonna PRAY! yeah man, gonna move things in the spiritual realm!!!
excited for Fri!!! whoooohooooooo~
hahaha, anyway watched 'ghost of girlfriends past' ytd it's a great movie man! but really, it's more for guys to watch haha... those play play not serious type. and got some parts is really hilarious. bth! (buitahan)
here are some cool quotes from the movie:
the power of a relationship lies with whoever cares less.. but power isnt happiness happiness is about caring more about people rather than less
the only time you forget about somebody is when you find somebody else that you care about more
a family believes in each other against all odds...
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HAHA i wanna watch Transformers!!!
1:01 AM
wow she's only 17 years old!! haha, power! . .
If I wrote a note to God I'd say please help us find our way End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say
Give us the strength to make it through Help us find love cause love is over due And it looks like we haven't got a clue Need some help from you Grant us the faith to carry on Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong On this road we're on
No, no no no We can't do this on our own
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
4:32 PM
I'm using my bb to blog now:) and I don't know how to go to the next line.. haha! So it shall be a reaaaaaly one chunk of paragraph. I'm currently with yiwen at some Christian bookstore in kovan.:) it was quite cool cuz she suddenly smsed me to say she's dying of hunger... In which I replied asking where she was, and HAHA she was a kovan! and I was on my way to kovan:) we're gonna meet yiying very soon.. I love surprises:) heh, okay I should go accompany yiwen already. feels funny just staring at my phone and typing... haha anyway, the reason I wanted to even access my blog here is.. I was just deep in thought on the bus.. This passed my mind, ' you can never go wrong as long as you keep your eyes fixed on Jesus ' :) seee youuuu!
Monday, July 06, 2009
2:45 PM
ohyes, i dreamt a crazy dream last night. it indeed is crazy. dont know how come my mind can generate such stuff. haha!
i really cant describe it in words, but i can literally see the images in my head still. there was this fighting thing going on with some evil monster or sth. and i lost my bb, which in my dream i called it butterfly-.- (got sense meh?! haha) but i remember there were ppl like clarence in my dream... which probably was bcos he was the one who sent me home on sat (haha!!)
i conclude that dreams are really what you take during the daytime, and sometimes really random ppl appear in our unconscious mode!
and to further make this more -.---- hahaha, peijun told me she dreamt last night, yiying smsed me to tell me about her dream too! hers is the ULTIMATE haha! and i saw on FB, olive had a weird dream too....
must be because of the rain last night ah... the weather too nice already, everybody dream.. but why is it weird dreams and not sweet ones? HAHA.
oh well, my dreams certainly never stop ceasing. :) reality and sleep can indeed be soooo interesting all the same haha!
haha and i keep sneezing now! not because of swine man...but the weather is super duper cold!! freezing! and maybe somebody's missing me;)
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2 years?
2:39 PM
it is so windy right now!! hahaha if you dont know, i reaaaaaly love windy days :) and rainy days too! since 'Rain' (the korean star) is so cool, maybe i should name my child 'Wind'! HAHA. feng~
the swine flu is indeed irritating. moo cant go sch for a week now!
AND Pst Kong and Dr AR Bernard are coming this Fri and Sun! :D i wanna gooooo on friday, pretty please? haha... invite more more more people!!!
p.s. i can't wait for Transformers this wed ;D
12:54 AM
being confident of this very thing, that He who begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ; [Philippians 1:6]
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i got to go. i have to go.
elevate thoughts... higher, bigger..
it has been 18 days already, i can do it. more than just that, i will do more.
a broken spirit before God.. a soften heart.
peace of God, which surpasses all understanding... guard my heart and mind tonight:)
i see a great future, i see something bigger, i see.... a God destiny plan.
do not sell away your destiny... for anything else in this world it is too precious. for those that you see now is temporary but what is unseen is eternal.
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rant rant rant to God, HAHA.
name after names keep popping in my mind there is hope in these people those people i have always believed in even though it is not happening YET it will happen it WILL. i need to pray
i see a generation rising up to take their place with selfless faith
Sunday, July 05, 2009
3:30 AM
ohno i'm sleeping at unearthly hours everynight! gotta sleep early gotta sleep early :) anyway nick just showed me this video online. nice song:) I NEED TO BE IN CHURCH TMR!
Saturday, July 04, 2009
11:15 PM
maybe all you need is someone who understands:)
5:46 PM
Just Checking In
A priest passing through his church in the middle of the day,
Decided to pause by the altar and see who had come to pray.
Just then the back door opened, a man came down the aisle,
The priest frowned as he saw the man hadn't shaved in a while.
His shirt was kind of shabby and his coat was worn and frayed,
the man knelt, he bowed his head, Then rose and walked away.
In the days that followed, each noon time came this chap,
each time he knelt just for a moment, A lunch pail in his lap
Well, the priest's suspicions grew, with robbery a main fear,
He decided to stop the man and ask him, 'What are you doing here?'
The old man said, he worked down the road. Lunch was half an hour.
Lunchtime was his prayer time, For finding strength and power
'I stay only moments, see, because the factory is so far away;
as I kneel here talking to the Lord, This is kind a what I say:
'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS JIM
CHECKING IN TODAY.'
The priest feeling foolish, told Jim, that was fine. He told the man he was welcome To come and pray just anytime.
Time to go, Jim smiled, said 'Thanks.' He hurried to the door.
The priest knelt at the altar, he'd never done it before.
His cold heart melted, warmed with love, and met with Jesus there. As the tears flowed, in his heart, he repeated old Jim's prayer:
'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
I DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY, BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY'
Past noon one day, the priest noticed that old Jim hadn't come.
As more days passed without Jim, he began to worry some.
At the factory, he asked about him , learning he was ill.
The hospital staff was worried, But he'd given them a thrill.
The week that Jim was with them, Brought changes in the ward.
His smiles, a joy contagious. Changed people, were his reward.
The head nurse couldn't understand why Jim was so glad,
when no flowers, calls or cards came, Not a visitor he had.
The priest stayed by his bed, He voiced the nurse's concern:
No friends came to show they cared. He had nowhere to turn.
Looking surprised, old Jim spoke up and with a winsome smile;
'the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know, that in here all the while everyday at noon He's here, a dear friend of mine, you see,
He sits right down, takes my hand, Leans over and says to me:
'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, JIM,
HOW HAPPY I HAVE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP,
AND I TOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.
ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY, I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY, AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS CHECKING IN TODAY.'
If this blesses you, pass it on Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
May God hold you in the palm of His hand and Angels watch over you.
But for those of us who are already His, He not only holds us in the palm of His hand, but has engraved our names there, and we are continually in His sight (Isaiah 49:16)
This is too good not to share -
So this is me ... Just Checking In To: You.
5:37 PM
today started with a happy day. yet today is a sad day, for me.. I SHOULD BE IN CHURCH NOW!!!! initially it was because i found out from ford's tweet (through blackberry!!) that their whole family's quarantine, then i remembered i was in contact with keryn before. so had to retake my temp and 4 times it was stil fever. sad righttt. but i feel alright man. but yeah, we need to be serious about this, so i am home right now... and i found out from ford that randyne's classmate was only thurs, but i met keryn on wed... so probably not? but stil, must take precautions...
i pray that very soon this h1ni flu thingy can be wiped out, so the whole world can be happy! go away man mister h1n1...
i am missing out on Pst Kent Munsey's service!!!! :( and alyssa and tingrui are in service today!!! how can i miss out! h1n1 you're the culprit haha..
going to drink the soy bean drink daddy bought, then take temp again. argh.
Friday, July 03, 2009
11:41 PM
i dedicate this song to, candace.
i know the chance of you reading my blog is like dont know how many percent. but then, i'll be here always man:) dont know what did God place in me.. but somehow i know you're very special. haha... i'll be praying for you girl.
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Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears And so you fight to keep from pouring out But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul Do you think that there's enough that you would drown?
If no one will listen If you decide to speak If no one's left standing after the bombs explode If no one wants to look at you For what you really are I will be here still
No one can tell you where you alone must go There's no telling what you will find there And God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones Screaming every step, "Just stay here"
If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down If your legs have given out under the weight If you find you've been settling for a world of grey So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate
If no one will listen If you decide to speak If no one's left standing after the bombs explode If no one wants to look at you For what you really are I will be here still
Thursday, July 02, 2009
11:51 PM
tuition with little k2 boy was better today... he made me am chio alot of times. HAHA. and today he totally didnt drop his pencil at all! haha!!! must be what i taught him worked... when the pencil was going to roll, he immediately stopped it and placed it in the middle of the table. haha cute man...:)
it's really quite cool how i'm going into teaching tuition etc. reaching out to the next generation..this has been on my mind everytime i go for the tuition. maybe it cant really be seen yet, but i believe God has sth much greater. just that i dont know what yet.. which actually makes it more exciting :D
went shopping with mummy today. she's so funny. my mom is cute. she'll tell the salesgirl say that i need to have clothes small enough for me, yet will make me look 18 years old. haha!
gotta do my tutorials, gotta do... hahaha... got to plan for the upcoming exam man!
gonna talk to my Father tonight. many many many things to say. :)
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chinese songs are the best man, best for singing. hahaha and we really should all go kbox after exams!!! it's been long since we just let our hair down at karaoke. hehh.
just never get tired of singing these olddddd songs!
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anyway happened to chance upon 管不著 by selina in youtube... nostalgic man, these songs. remember how peijun and i would use to sing them in school in secondary. HAHA! funny how God works... He's indeed amazing.. now both of us are serving God alongside our many secondary school friends.:)
REVIVAL. it's happening right now. prss, mjc, tpjc, nyjc, tp, sp... come on man!!!!
and of cos PGSM! come on!!
4:31 AM
simplicity of heart child-like faith spirit of idealism
do you have these all?
3:04 AM
telling a story.
wanted to blog ytd but there was an error! hahaha, anyway it has been great the past 2 days! from follow ups to tuitions... i can really teach:)
been hearing many great stories, from yiying to val ang... super amazing. revival is near! yes! and eloise is fasting too. val ang too. this is cool OH MAN this is certainly cool!
k2 boy is not easy... tough man... ' nicholas, sit down! ' and his pencil kept rolling off the table. if i counted, it'll probably be about 10 times!
hahahaha and i got a blackberry! oh man, first time i felt quite noob using a phone:) HAHA. but still... love BB! just gotta figure out more!
and... annlynn and i did some hair change.:) and she's mad about getting her BB. hahahaha... yiying too. 75, 24 more days...:P
i love peijun anyway:) a God given friend. we will grow old together amen?