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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
11:26 PM generations.
![]() ![]() moo just came over to my house not long ago to pass me these cards. thanks moo for making a trip over so late! these are made by choongkai and gavin for their classmates to encourage them for exams! woah, it really feels great seeing the next generation loving their friends the same way we did a few years back. they are doing the same, carrying the revival...going all out for their friends.:) the next generation will always be better... the prss revival will continue on for generations man. prayed over those cards... praying that the people will see a difference in these 2 guys. faith shall arise in them:) feeling so heartened:) haha i'm typing this while studying actually. stats oh stats~ you're not that difficult, but i gotta conquer you soon man... so many distractions.hahaha. increase my capacity Tuesday, September 29, 2009
2:24 AM be a man, do the right thing. from my generation onwards, it's gonna be different. hearing from my mom, i really know i dont want the same thing to happen to me. i got to really trust God in this. not to just marry a Christian, but someone of a strong and stable spiritual walk with God. because if i do not, and do the same... i know i will feel the same frustrations as her. i'm just like my mom. and this time it's not gonna be the same. i admire him for his fatherly love, protection, sacrifice, faithfulness... but really, its also something more... a real man of God. my future soulmate has got to a man of strong character, yet humble enough to accept opinions. that's when we can grow together in our relationship. the future seems a blur, but yes it's going to be different. i will walk in God's plans for me. the word is- will. . ps. it's raining. the smell of rain is heavenly really. ironically, rain makes me feel better than worse. :) it kinda cheers me up. 1:54 AM how a conversation with JUG goes...
*naf jacques lol just angsty i need to pray pray pray valerie! ; anastasia hahaha go go go rant to God hahaha *naf jacques typing in tongues hfopsjhfojkhwrkhgietjghoigrtjwrogjifwjgiwrgwrf gsdfpgksropwghkwrgjoirjghioeghjojgrg grwjogoiwrjgwrjhwr-ghi-0w4igt4gt-4wti4-tgw5hjy09w53hjgwrg i rant to you first valerie! ; anastasia try speaking what you just typed.... *naf jacques then you must rant with me then got place of agreement then got power alr valerie! ; anastasia haladhasldhaskldhasidasidjasdasjdsa sheeeelaeakrelakgjogeaouajfsa *naf jacques ghasfkhowrtjkhpjkfphjsfopghkjpwrohjkopwrhwrgh gsfpoghkpsorhkrwjhiwrh09rtjh0ejgr0w9ghjwr90hjwrgh valerie! ; anastasia sheoakropeakoeaoaepoaipdaidas heaojfeaoidjeljkpaegoaufiaufae *naf jacques gsfpoghiwr-hkjejjkjkopehkopeh adophgkwproshkgpowrhjwrphwrphjrpwoghkpwroh hsfjppshjrwhjphjwrpjrhwj;rhjghjopwrh-w4-0h4jhjwrp;msfh valerie! ; anastasia kaoerjaohfaepfoapfmalkmz;aljdajsdas;djas *naf jacques #%$%^#%&@#%$^#%^@$%!#%$^#%%#!$!#$@^#^@$% valerie! ; anastasia WHY GOT SYMBOLS ONE!!! *naf jacques g'lksgkwro[hkwr[hkwrophkwrophkopsfhkjpsofhjkpoh okay got agreement liao here comes the poweR!! HAHA. he really does make life more interesting! but he doesnt want to be interesting, he wants to be amazing :D a man with a vision yo! 12:10 AM NYJC prayer meeting.... powerful. and nonsense altogether. 13 of us in a room... the largest PM we have had in history HAHA. though 4 of us were mao pai one. haha jacques every single thing also comment. plus junyan etc... the comments that everyone gives... really can peng. hahahaha. but great time together :D REVIVAL. it's finally happening.... whooooohoooo watched fame with jieru, zhilin, moo and few others. :) we were 1hour late because of NY PM. hahaha. so i totally didnt understand the movie! but then loved the songs :) thanks jacques for the link to download :D Try - Asher Book If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come If i say you're the one would you believe me If i ask you to stay would you show me the way Tell me what to say so you don't leave me The world is catching up to you While your running away to chase your dream It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change And maybe i'm not ready But i'm trying for your love I can hide up above I will try for your love We've been hiding enough If i sing you a song would you sing along Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull If i give you my heart would you just play the part Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful Am i catching up to you While your running away, to chase your dreams It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change And maybe i'm not ready If i walk would you run If i stop would you come If i say you're the one would you believe me Monday, September 28, 2009
12:52 AM woman.
![]() ![]() thanks weiyin for making such an awesome board(ticket?) with the bday messages :Dcan really feel your effort and love inside of it man. and it's a great day because sherlyn came! hahaha. times like that are precious. anyway, yupp i'm like officially 18 years old! cant wait for my first m18 show mannn. :) the HOGC experience team are just fabulous people! they really blew our minds away with their dances, p&w... praised and worshipped like never before. truly these are people with the 'soul' asians should get some of that in us man! that'll make life so much more colourful.:) Love is the ability to benefit others at the expense of self. All disappointments come out when expectations are not met. woah God i'm gonna become a stronger woman (haha not girl cos 18 already) sometimes actions really does speak louder than words. as much as we always say we want to love people like Jesus.. when it really happens, that's the true test many times the easier route is just to heck care, to allow disappointment to settle in... or even be bitter about things. and stop loving=stop caring=end of r/s. but i'm gonna stand FIRM upon Your word... not going to be knocked down so easily. if the enemy's gonna use discouragement, i aint gonna give in. . God's been really amazing. a year ago in oct, i could have been beaten down. nearly~ so close. YET. God sees every decision made. faithfulness is really the key. i thank God. now, a year later... vision's come to pass....coming to pass....will get even bigger, even greater. it took exactly one year. amazing huh. though scared to death sometimes, but i will be refined, i will attack. i will move. greater things have YET to come. Thursday, September 24, 2009
11:37 PM mercy.
Too easy to judge,
Too hard to pray, But, IF with mercy and embarrassed spirit we cry for another, God hears our love, Not reserved for priests, This gap waits for anyone, You, me, unjudging, Praying, asking, pleading, The promise of mercy afloat in heaven alights on a sinner's soul, Because you saw, you prayed, you asked for them. -Phil Pringle Wednesday, September 23, 2009
3:10 AM woah, a headache is no joke man. haha, headaches are killers really. trying to think of what to write at this hour + headache is bad. God help. i cannot use my own brainpower. teach me to express. a passion to love. unconditionally. without expecting anything in return.. bring it on man. :) Saturday, September 19, 2009
2:50 AM Blessed are the pure in heart,
For they shall see God. watched The Ugly Truth with peijun today. haha it's such a guys show man. and i thank God asian culture is not like angmoh. but then again, this is how things are like out there dont live in a bubble world man, purity but not innocence. got to go to bed already. tonight will be a night i will look at the starsssss. haha there are such nights man. few nights ago, i dreamt that somebody gave me this word- CARE. yes valerie. this is something you got to grow in. realising i can love.. but it takes quite a lot effort for me to care... it's something probably only myself will understand. but yeah, imperfect.. but growing better each day. we should never lose our focus. always looking at the author and finisher of our race. i will daily remind myself why i'm doing all this who i'm doing it for.. recently i've seen...changes and really bad changes. i wonder, how can someone experience God personally and even serve Him, build people up.. and yet draw away so easily? to the extremes even. probably worser than before knowing God. change when it is bad, or unexpected.. it's scary. i will never be like that. even if i'm *choy* am not a Christian i will not go back to my old ways. because i mean... are you truly changed by God? or was it just suited according to the culture you were in? change is from within. not the externals. work on your insides. . at the end of the day all i want to hear from my Father above is a well done. :) guard my heart. 1:17 AM SUN IS COOL.
whoooohooo had the live webcast with Sun just now! it was fabulously awesome man!! her MV for Fancy Free is just really out of the world.... WORLD CLASS. and i love it so very much, soooo in my head nowwwww hahahaha i tried catching the lyrics but it might be wrong here and there so i cant wait to get the album!! and all of that and get the right lyrics! :) this song just makes YOU feel good man :D . . woke up feeling like a millionaire walking down the street with the wind in my hair all the boys stare say i look so good no i'm not cocky but i knew that they would cause everywhere i go my life is so fun and i don't have to worry the sun's so shining on me look how it's shining on me you can tell me nothing lookout cause i'm coming the street is my runway and everyone is looking at me all of their eyes are on me i feel so beautiful (i'm lovely) can no one tell me now (i'm fancy free) my life's a circus show (it's lovely) no matter where i go (i'm fancy free) di di di di di di di di feels just like i'm on a shooting star make my wish to be a superstar if i'm wrong and dreams don't come true i'll just make today what i want to have your say you can't break my high you should join me on my carpet ride just play, would you say say yeah yeah yeah it's so easy see that's your problem right there you're too cool i'm just trying to have fun stop worrying so much and just find me~ Wednesday, September 16, 2009
4:12 AM http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=11TXiPXCHkA&feature=related Here I Go Again- Casting Crowns
Father, hear my prayer I need the perfect words Words that he will hear And know they're straight from You I don't know what to say I only know it hurts To see my only friend slowly fade away So maybe this time I'll speak the words of life With Your fire in my eyes But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words What am I so afraid of? Cause here I go again Talking about the rain And mulling over things that won't live past today And as I dance around the truth Time is not his friend This might be my last chance to tell him that You love Him But here I go again Here I go again Lord, You love him so You gave Your only Son If he will just believe He will never die But how then will he know What he has never heard? Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life You love him, You love him What am I so afraid What am I so afraid What am I so afraid of? How then will he know What he has never heard? 3:32 AM CRY.
One of the most sensational things on earth is a vision from God.
Vision ignites fire in our spirit. It births the 'prayer of faith'. -Phil Pringle . Break down our pride And all the walls we’ve built up inside Our earthly crowns and all our desires We lay at Your feet With everything We will shout forth Your praise i will believe in you despite. 12:05 AM i've got to tap on God's strength tonight. i cannot do this on my own.. peace. i need that man. heart's heavy, sinking inside. spirit has got to be strong. not relying on emotions.. it'll only pull me down further. the difference is, i'm not alone. i am a child of God. healing and restoration. i am BIG. Tuesday, September 15, 2009
1:05 AM thank You.
what a long and tiring day. indeed quite crazy huh. :) from the really exciting dream i had last night... i awoke with all of it in my mind :) it was really a wide range of stuff man. then.. i headed to nyjc. passed meikwee this little notebook to jiayou for her prelims. i think the notebook's quite cute. hahaha. miss her man, gotta hang out aft prelims! was gonna study with jacques and weicheng.. then we saw gentson and he came over to join us too. i think school's a really cool place to study in the evening to night. especially when the cool wind blows at you, woahhh it feels super good man. :) just that i didnt really have anyone to consult about my statistics then. haha. really saw another side of jacques today! the super duper crazy side of him. crazy until i also bth him. seriously if anyone thought i was keesiao when i'm tired, you aint seen nothing yet!! this is a guy who goes mad when he's stressed out. HAHA. he ended up tackling and wrestling with some guys. with jacques like that, you'll never get bored. AND you'll never be able to study in peace. hahahaha! heard from weicheng that he's even more extreme when it comes to end of trainings. well done man..haha. then we got really hungry and decided to eat at the coffeeshop outside. both of them were talking alot about rugby, and it was actually quite interesting to listen. so many terms which to them is layman terms already, but to me it sounds so foreign. one thing i found out, is that almost every rugby player gets either a knee or shoulder injury. THAT, i can definitely strike a conversation. other stuff, i just got to listen more and learn hahaha. as if we had not enough of the walking around, when we walked to the mrt station after our dinner... i found out that i had misplaced my ezlink card! man, that feeling is just horrible...because my ezlink is so precious to me. it's still student fare so if i ever lost it it'll mean i had to pay adult. which will be really bad. thus we walked backwards to find it. at 11pm :( felt so bad on the inside, but decided that no matter what i just had to find it man. when such things happen, all you can do is to pray and hope hard that a miracle will happen. because the feeling is just so at lost. but then God is a good God :) as Jacques and i were walking... (we called it an adventure) i was secretly praying that God will answer my prayer that i'd be able to find it amidst the whole route we took... then it was like so sudden that Jacques exclaimed that my ezlink card was on the patch of grass. whoooo that instant was like super relieved man! man...on the grass man. GRASS. Jacques said that God had brought him to be my guide to find it. and that He gave him the Gift of the guiding light (HAHA) super funny hor him? now he talks about our God so very much hehee. :) yeah but it was really such a great thing i managed to find it, God is so real yeah? and we should always have a heart of thanksgiving towards Him :) on the way back on the bus, we started talking... and those moments of such talk, it's just awesome. you know, like about life. there came to a point where we talked about how God has called him for so long to Him.. AND i got so amazed by God's love there and then that i really felt like tearing. His love is simply so amazing. :) i cant wait for more to get unfold... yes, the future is amazing people. what do we know? eyes have not seen what God has in stored for us. i lead the most awesome life ever! Monday, September 14, 2009
1:58 PM dreams.
had a really ridiculous dream last night/this morning. i cant really explain it because it's all over the place..but i can stil see the images in my mind. my mind is so interesting, it can pick up any random things going on in my life and then make it into a movie-like dream! actually it's very exciting, sometimes i wonder how creative my mind is in my unconscious mode man... if you could like connect my mind to a teeveee when i'm asleep or something and watch it, i bet you'll enjoy it alot. full of humour, action, reality(eg studies) and even relationships. HAHA. man, i lead a really interestingggg life! 3:11 AM I LOVE MY LIFE!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
1:06 AM REJOICE.
exhaused man! SUPER. rah, bcos of all the running just now.. hahaha. anyway it has been an awesome week, days.. i see lives changing before my very eyes. just amazinggg. today heaven rejoiced. :D God i pray these encounters will not just stop at here it'll go on and on... more and more of You Lord. turning faith into conviction. :) d5, we got to be more than just fun. :) there needs to be deeeeeeeeeper friendships close, heart to heart sharings just talking.. just listening... encouraging, loving. we will grow another level in our relationships :) physically tired, mentally drained but spiritually and emotionally recharged. more strength i pray. Friday, September 11, 2009
2:51 AM fruit shall remain.
haha okay this is not a really good portrayal. cos there are ex-nyjcians here hahaha. (add more colour to the photo only haha) AND many of those who are not in this picture. but still, this is like a pictorial vision of the revival yeah? if you get what i mean... God has so much more for this school:) and it is slowly coming to pass... weicheng,yongsiang,zhilin,yiwen,junyan,jiayin,gabriel,jianfan,jacques,elizabeth,meikwee,kevin (hope i didnt miss anyone out)if these people come together as a team, as an army of God.. how powerful that'll be man. 12 of them, at least. one day you guys will have a photograph for yourselves.:) that'll be so cool. . haha okay I SHALL GO READ MY BOOK. procrastinate too much. too excited already. until just now i talked to moo until i spat out the bubble tea pearl in my mouth. haha! speaking to this mountain. :) 2:21 AM happy days!
i am really quite tired now. hahaha. which is actually a good thing, cuz it means i will sleep earlier these days. but before i go to bed, i shall at least read as much as i can of my book :) today was a really awesome day (ytd to be exact) there was really a breakthrough in CG. so much faith, the presence of God was thick in the place.. coming back to the secret place is what we really need, to gain strength and direction. wow, CG sermons never fail to bring us forward.. i'm gonna really soak myself more in God's word and presence man. so much more i can grow in :) so much more i can do.. a new strength valerie... ohyes jacques is such an inspiration. or rather, such a miracle. :) and he's stil the same nonsense-super funny guy.. he told us tonight that he has a dream!! -applause- (adapted from martin luther king in mpr1 hehee) he wants to play drums on WT in 5 years time.:) -you nv know, it might come to pass earlier. this is a man who has only been to church thrice, with a dream/vision ignited man. that's the power of God, the power of the church. dreams, destinies are being built.. :) never ever doubt the love and the power of God man. it will break down every wall, and soften every heart. this is my God. . ohman. the things you are sharing with me, it's really something i can understand. that is why i know it aint gonna be easy. but you really got to be strong girl. you just HAVE to be. cry it out, let it out. tomorrow, it's gonna be okay. no matter what. i should say a prayer for you tonight man. (haha, you wont be seeing this anyway) thank God you share with me anyway. so thankful for that. that's the least i can do for you my friend. . LIFE IS GREAT. when i stop and think about it, i'm really living a really awesome life now:) got to mark this down thats why i blog. hahaha, got to leave a print somewhere in my life huh. :) i pray that God will fill your heart with dreams and that faith gives you the courage to dare to do great things i'm here for you whatever this life brings so let my love give you roots and help you find your wings 12:41 AM just saw this from tumblr. “Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At time, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for.” tumblr's kinda cool huh. :) Thursday, September 10, 2009
1:35 AM went for Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition! woah it really felt so overwhelming, with so many historical stories and how the Bible was written and translated. the little pink bible which i hold right now... now i know how much it had gone through to become what it is today. haha, God's word is so powerful. there are some pics i'd like to post, but my usb cable is still with annlynn. haha so probably another time. " Seeing that a Pilot steers the ship in which we sail, who will never allow it to perish even in the midst of shipwrecks, there is no reason why our minds should be overwhelmed with fear and overcome with weariness. " - John Calvin . supper at lau pa sat was crazy. stressed. never will want to go back there again, at least not at the back seats. haha but still, always love spending time with d5. LOVE. . i love my life so very much :) got to treasure every single moment of it!! hahaha. and i like talking to jacques. he's very nice to talk to. even though he admits he zombies sometimes HAHA. i have awesome friends! what is life without them man? hahaha. okayy gotta go read my book now! really excited about it :) p.s : my space bar is squeaking for dont know what reason. haha. Wednesday, September 09, 2009
4:36 PM loving life!
came back not long ago from a crazy night and day! hahaha. yesterday after school went down to ryan's house for steamboat. supposedly we were having movie marathon (which failed) HAHA. the steamboat was great, satisfying..in abundance. then we just did our nonsense stuffs.. really nonsense man these people. haha but really lovely too :P HAHAHA. (sounds so wrong for the guys) and cg guys certainly multiplying man! there were only 3 girls left- jingfen venus and myself. with one hundred guys;) haha! we tried to sing or worship with guitar, but everytime we sang a little louder, ryan will come in and 'shhhhh' hahaha. so we couldnt in the end. haha. anyway i felt that the most nonsense part was that... they thought i was nonsense. haha no lah~ it's a myth (haha) that valerie goes keesiao when she's tired. which is probably 50percent true.. hahaha. but anw this morning ryan was trying to get me up, and he is super hiong man. he pulled away the big blanket, on the fan super strong, use bolster hit, use soft toys to scare. wahh, i pity guozhe man! his bro is FIERCE. haha! and then the rest joined in also. which is also super nonsense. taking my bb to spam twitter with words which did not come out from my mouth! and making grammatical mistakes. and taking photos of me with their taupok (haha that's the ultimate..) tsktsk people ah, never die before ah... haha but stil, i felt that we really did have a lot of fun. just that it could have been better if the guys would just stop playing dota for once. HAHA! . then i proceeded down to church this morning. had a prayer session with yiwen :) we were just talking happily first, then we got down to pray. with yiwen praying more in english while i prayed in the spirit. super cool man, that feeling~ it's those times where you just pray fervently. man... if everybody would just pray like that, heaven will definitely be open!! nyjc- got to have more faith man. God's faithful. He really is. got to believe, got to trust... for more:) . anyway! watched Time Traveller's Wife on monday with peifen, yiwen, jacques and weicheng. i really think it's a nice show. :) it's those kind of show that has a sad ending, but touches your heart. and halfway through the movie it made me ponder a little about life. it was quite a bam in my face (or in my heart) that in our lifetime there will be loved ones who'll leave us.. and it sorta caught me a little of the reality that it will def happen (especially my parents) wow i love my parents man. and i love the people around me. sometimes in life we got to stop a little and think about these people who are always there for us.. and we got to appreciate them. got to stop taking things for granted. one thing i know.. and am very assured, is that i will be seeing my parents in heaven:) and i thank God for that. people... dont give up, your prayers should never cease. your family's gonna get saved. amen. Tuesday, September 08, 2009
4:14 PM move.
Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good. [Psalm 34:8] just spent time in God's presence. i need this more, and more. it was wonderful, the presence of the Holy Spirit. :) it was a breakthrough. the connection, the ease of drawing in.. got to draw closer than ever before. more than just truths, or words it's an experience... personally got to have more encounters with God. praying for people, i know God is certainly moving in areas we have never imagined. i will dare to dream.. seeing things breaking through in their lives. not gonna be just empty talk, it is going to happen for sure. now all it takes is for the move of the Holy Spirit + Faith + Actions. and everyday i grow to love You more . " There are no short cuts to the anointing. There are no hasty methods for acquainting yourself with the Lord. If you want gold, you need to dig. You dig 'until'. Time spent with God will yield discovery of Him. " -Phil Pringle Monday, September 07, 2009
2:54 AM you say, they say: dont be silly. i say: one day you'll see. it's gonna be worth it. i dont care, i will pray until the heavens open, the sky falls, the ground shakes, the oceans overflow. whatever it is, i will make it worth it. 2:35 AM today is a very joyful day. :) i love to talk about my God. He is the best. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIFEN! it's 2 h and 36 min over. hahaha. but anyway, jacques came to church todayy :) and faith cheong too! :D it's super duper cool can. :) but pray that the next time she sees me she wont be scared of me. hahaha. i am so NOT scary man! going to pray hard. pray for an encounter. pray for God's power to come in... i love my church, i love my life :D . cant wait for time traveller's wife tmr with nyjc peeps :) it's gonna be sucha great movie.. and time spent tgt! . God... use me use me use me use me use me use me. excited for d5! :) . many times i look at you and i really cant imagine how you'll ever change for the better. it seems so impossible. but everytime i get into God's word, and i start to pray... i know that i've got to believe... even though my mind's telling me how? but that's the basis for a miracle to come to pass- my faith. if i do not even believe in you, who will? Friday, September 04, 2009
1:27 AM i just saw the date of today on my mobile. man, every year on this day... 4th september. it has been 6 years. siew woon, it has been so long. yet i can stil remember that moment so vividly. girl, you are part of the reason why i have viewed life so seriously since young. why it is so important to bring as many people to heaven as i can. i wish you knew God. i miss you man. i wished i could have.. for one of you, i'm gonna bring a hundreds, a thousands more along. . we've only one life. one life, to make a difference. it's not enough to just stop at here. there are stil thousands out there. never satisfied. THOUSANDS. we cannot be selfish, we cannot just think for ourselves. Thursday, September 03, 2009
1:47 AM fun times.
the day started out with moo and i visiting vali :) and moo spoiled her own surprise by tweeting about it! hahaha. but its really been long since we met vali, so it felt really cool:) then hup, nick, moo and i went to chinatown, for our lil adventure :) had lots of food, like dimsum! it was rather tiring walking around in the hot sun, but then it was really very fun. :) it's the company that matters really :D watched scandal makers with enqi and yiying, it's such a cute movie. :) didnt get the full understanding cuz we got in late, but still enjoyed it alot. haha.. it's september already. time really flies. i still remember peifen wanting to plan her own bday last year! and her bday's this sunday already. time... you surely have wings man! hahaha. . saw partyworld at chinatown today. miss going KTV. should go very soon :) . 你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的 Wednesday, September 02, 2009
2:15 AM since i've made up my mind, i will not regret. :) . because happiness is like thin ice. |